beLieve In meeEe...

2010-02-01T16:51:00.003+08:00

high tea was superb! ate lotsa food. :)
met iqah at yishun and train-ed down to douby ghaut to meet aidah.
den went to clarke quay. wanted to walk to novetel. but the 3 of us were lost.
wahuahuas!
so we cab-ed to novetel. :P

3 of us were hungry, came put down our begs and down we go to grab our food!
wooohoo!
ate like nobody business. :P
after that, went up to our booked hotel room. and karaoke session.
drink till we drop. haha! but i didnt get drunk though. :P
i sang and everyone was silent listening to me singing.
siakens! paisey sia!
zen was like "ehhhh sweet sia her voice! ehh i didnt know that she can sing!"
hahahks!

dancing, drinking, singing and screaming non stop la all of us.
jumping on the bed. we drank beers and vodka. :)
mixed of everything la. :P
lucky im not drunk. hahaha!

after all those nonsense, me, shikin, kak abidah & aidah went to central.
looking for piercing shop but couldnt find one
so me & shikin's was disappointed. cause we couldnt do piercing.
we have to wait till the both of us are free again then can go piercing.
:P

cab-bed home. thanks kak abidah for the treat. :P
i was having hang over when i reached home. :P

ohh anyways, edrie is a changed person right now.
it kinda make me laugh but its okay. he's changing for the better. :)
i thank god for that. :P
get well soon and take care of urself dear. :)

peace! :)

2010-01-21T09:38:00.002+08:00

good morning dear readers! :)
i woke up super damn early just because i'm worried about work now.
because my previous night duty, i did some mistakes on the charting and this stupid someone make a big fuss out of it. :(
yesterday ward manager called me at night. i'm not sure why cause i didnt pick up the phone.
i think she wants me to come for AM duty.
or maybe regarding this matter.
nevermind la, we'll just see later what's next la k? :)
i hope everything will be fine.

so last week, met up with my beloved FM-ians.
plan to just lepak. so they met me at novena.
Sorry Aiisha and BB has to wait for so long. haha! :P
den came Fanana & Yaya. so we trained down to Woodlands.
while waiting for Nunu, we went to popular first since Fanana need to get something for her sch stuff.
den proceed to have our dinner. super hungry!
den came Nunu! OMG! missed her damn much! hahaha! :P
hugged her tight2. :P meet up real soon ayte boyfie?! :P

den went civic to slack. Nunu just cant stop dancing. till her legs are cramp.
*tu laaaa.. went clubbing lagikk!*
did the usual thing, gossip, laughed, smoked, and lotsa things.

the best part was i saw SITI ILMUNA! omg!!
i was like ehh.. this girl.. i think i noe her.. so i called out her name.
and she saw me and quickly run towards me and hug me.
OMG! i has been sometime. she was meeting the FM-ians peeps too.
it was LalaDolly and AnBoogs. :)
so we asked them to joined us and later on came Fieona.

the rest had to leave so left me and boyfie NUNU! :P
we catch up on each other. so much u know her story!
den chitchat till boyfie's friend came and continue chatting.
ard 10 plus went to mrt station to meet Blink.

hmm.. i miss Nurul' Ain, Nur Rahdznitazura, Rohzeanna & Hennie Fitriani so much!
ohh my girls. please please please meet up soon and let's have fun together! :)
muahhh!

i'm kinda feeling not like going to work. can i get MC instead?
but Shikin & I promised each other not to take MC without falling sick.
hahaha! :P
nak jadi pekerja contoh la konon.
kontol la! anyways, i miss Shikin so much! we so gonna have fun after our pay right?
wooohoo! :)

Feelings...

2010-01-14T10:11:00.003+08:00

Greetings! :)
lets not talk about new year celebration la kay?
cause almost every blog i went to, all talking about their new year celebration.

first, i think its really the time for me to move on.
i really have to. i have to stop clinging on to you.
i have to stop hoping of getting night msges from you anymore.
no more midnight calls. no more everything from you.
and with that, i wont pray or wish you goodluck with your dreams.
it's not that i'm being mean but you deserve to be treated this way,
because i'm sick and tired of you went missing for so many days.
and i'm countless of how many times you've went missing.
so goodbye to you.
i've done what i'm suppose to do.

okay. suddenly i have the mood to update my blog.
today there will be an audit at my workplace. dammit!
i'm lucky to be in the afternoon shift. because! audit is in the morning. :P
but tmr i'm morning shift. :( and there will still be an audit going on.

yeayy! meeting my dearest friends tmr after work! :)

oh pleasseeeeeeeeeee! pay day come real soon.
i'm so not having enough cash right now. :(
i still have to get a new lappy, a new camera and also my awaiting driving license!
woohooo!

i'm so cant wait for mumy to down payment my new car. :)
and thats the motivation of me to get my driving license real soon. yessah! :P
i'm missing nuratika bte mas'od!
must meet her this month and have fun! wweeeehooo! :P

i'm off to werk! :)

Good experience PLUS shagged.

2009-12-29T10:52:00.002+08:00

hello world! :P i'm back into scene. hahaha!
alright first, congrats to Sezhairi Sezali for obtaining the Singapore Idol title.
when will be my turn? :P

alright, let's talk about my night duty.
i felt so relieved that i'm done with my night duty.
it was super tiring cause i didnt grab any sleep at all.
i didnt go for my break too.
simply because my side was busy with hourly parameters. adoiiii..

night duty with shikin, germaine, kak ton and the rest was fun.
but 3rd night, shikin came to werk with swallon eyes. haishh.. ape lagi?
gado ngan bf die laa..
so during our short break, she shared what happened.
afterall everything was fine la.

ohh! i've gotten my new locker INSIDE the staff room. hahaha!
tinggi lak tu. :P

ohh, family has been loved to me..
Dady picked me up for 3 days straight from werk.
heheks! thanks.. have been spending quality time with family.
ohh. i'm shifting house real soon.
sold the current house and bought new hs too. :)

hmm.. i'm so fucking disappointed on what is fucking happening now.
it boils me up. you want to leave? so be it. get lost ayte?!
i'll do what is good to me. bye girl. :)

i miss my baby so much!

Beautiful Dinner, GREAT clans, BORING course

2009-12-22T22:04:00.000+08:00

HO HO HO! Christmas is just around the corner.
and i'm looking forward for my night duty. :P
can't wait to experience the feeling of working with small group of nurses with total of 6 cubicles which consist of 6 patients each, which equals to 36 patients to take care of for 12 hours minus 1 and a half hour break. :)

oh yes, i almost forgot.
went out with dearest colleagues. planned was total of 7 ladies.
Kak Endang, Kak Yani, Sheeraz, Elfeeza, Syafiqah, Shikin & Myself.
but the one who made it was the last 4 names i mentioned.
so we were so kecoh at that eating place.
we ate tomyam soup, cockles, BBQ sotong, oats prawns and lots more.
yum yum!
camwhore all the way in the bus. HAHAHA! :P

shopping with them. and also, Shikin accompanied me to pierce my nose. :)
i was reluctant, but she insisted me to go. hehehe. :P

i missed the clinical settings. went to Company Induction course for 2 days.
Bloody hell! it's damn boring.
lucky Germaine's bf was there to keep my day lively.
met some new faces and familiar faces like those Physiotherapist from my ward.
basically the course taught us on good services which i think was common sense
went for a hospital tour which i think waste my time cause i've done that during Orientation.
but the tea breaks was nice. :P

oh, i don't care and i wont bother.
cause i'm feelingless. i don' find it important to me anymore.
so up to you to decide cause i've made mine.
for 1/2 a year i've been living like i've got no one.
i'm having this hatred feeling towards you now.
idk how can i ignore this feeling.
but for now, ignorance is bliss. and i'm loving this moment.

i have better things to tackle and attend to.
people don't planned out for my future or rather i don't need people to plan out for me.
cause i've been all alone for the past 6 mnths except for the support from my beloved family.
after all, family is the best resort.

: FUCK YOU! I HATE U BITCH! :

Lucky

2009-12-18T09:54:00.006+08:00

hello! damn! i'm missing this 2 girls up there.
ever since sch ended, i rarely meet that skinny little nuratika!
she keep msg-ing me to meet up for ice skating. but still considering since my ward girls ask me out this sunday for a open table session.
*yelaa.. kan da bonus* heheks
i have to make up for them cause i didnt went swimming with them cause of a last minute kenduri.

so i'll make it this sunday alright?
we gonna eat all we can at newton! :)
so basically got early pay plus BONUS! :P
mumy went to update my bank book this morning.
she came back and shouted "ADIK! tgk buku kao! btol ke duit yang kao dpt ni?"
HAHA! cute la my mumy.
i was shocked i get that much. da mcm staff nurse nye pay lak. :P
wahuahuahua!

year end party is coming this 21st by ward colleagues. :)
ohh ya! unit and ward managers are so cool to grab us a X-mas & New Year gift.
thanks for the towels from Aussino to encourage us to bath more! hahaha!

so far leading a happy life with new friends.
throwing all the old things :)
no use ponder about it.

bowling? swimming? clubbing or ice skating?
yessah!

oh! this season, most of my patients are demented.
so i'm having difficulties in communicating with them.

PS: im missing syafiqah! and kak syikin! (im doing my night duty with her! yeay!)

2009-12-09T09:38:00.003+08:00

Good Morning earthling. :)

okay i woke up super early for my afternoon duty today.
reason because the moment dady step into the house, he was talking so loudly like a mad man.
:x
i couldnt catch what was he talking about.
but i could hear he was talking about his car & money.
aiiyaaa, my family car is like giving problem to everyone.
so basically, i suggested for my parents to buy a new car.
7 seater since the family is increasing. :P

ohh, i miss my Teachers' Heaven damn much!
when can we have a gathering my dear friends?
you people cant expect me to organise it again?
ever since sch time?? hmm..
korang ni mmg la. the same committee je yg organise.
takpe takpe..

okay la better get ready.
parents is going for a visit.
relatives passed on. :(

bye!

The Opposite

2009-12-08T16:23:00.003+08:00

I thought i'm giving you the impression that i like you.
but you're feeling the otherwise. :(
Seriously, i never have the intention to make you feel that way.
I've always been trying my best to make you feel accepted.
because i know, you're someone who i can rely on.
Upon knowing you with her, the pain that triggers my heart was so painful.
but still, you explained there was nothing between you two.

To be honest, i'm having butterflies in the stomach every time you ask me out.
eversince the first time i saw you, i know there's something in you that i wanna delve in.
I'm very very sorry to make you feel that way.
I like you, but i'm still waiting.

-end-

so basically, i've changed everything in my blog including my url.
i may not have the time to update every now and then.
but i'll try my best though.
thanks bella! :) muah!

work has been the same thing. Orientation checked!.
kinda miss the ward setting, i'll be back on track yaw!
errr.. i'll be on night duty on christmas day. (three days) PH = DOUBLE PAY! :P
its gonna be my very very first night duty.
and curious about it.
5 nurses on night duty. mati siol! incharge of the whole ward.
nvm, will see for myself la okay?! :P

i'm missing most of the people i used to hang out with. :(

Nice Weekend

2009-11-15T20:19:00.003+08:00

Aloha! :)
okay, firstly i wanna say something to Aby.
since he said something about me at his blog.
Actually there's nothing for you to thank me.
it's partly my duty to take care of your grandfather since he's admitted at my ward. :)
all i wanna say is, stay strong alright. and i'm sure you are strong.
let your grandfather rest in peace okay.
i'm sure he doesnt want to see you, your cousins and family feel sad. :)
he even left a great smile before he left u guys right?
you gonna be fine,trust me :) seeya around real soon Aby. :)

Okay! 1st week at new ward is kinda cool.
i'm lovin' every moment of it in my new ward.
everything seems fine. Thank God.
Dollah Kassim is in my ward! & he's under my care. :)
can't talk much about him *zip mouth*

today i'm off. tmr morning shift! woohoo! :P end at 230pm.
after that i wanna take my ID password.
alright. i''ll be having my 3 days off soon! wooohooo! yessah!
planning who to meet. :P

okay im off now folks. take care yea? :)

God Bless Me

2009-11-10T19:14:00.003+08:00

hello everyone! yes! i'm back after so long of MIA? haha! :P
well. i'm very busy to update my blog daily. :)

briefly, i'm a confirmed staff in ttsh. :) thank god.
i'm done with my course.
so i'm starting my 1 yr bond with effect from today.
thank god, i got a good ward, good nurse manager too.
and the staff there are friendly too. weeehoo!
the sad thing was im separated from my beloved schmates :(
its okay. im sure they gonna be fine in their own ward.

and the most disturbing thing is that our orientation in postpone to 30th
simply due to some colleague need to clear their MCs. :(
adoii.. so long.
got my own locker. so still thinking what to paste there. wahuahuahau!
so good of sister to give me a locker that is same height as me. weeeee! :P
thank you thank you.
i'm happy to be in my new ward.

Alhamdullilah pay will be higher now. hahahaha!
den can take drivin license.. weeeeeeeeeee.. haha

alright, thats all for now folks! :)

Happy Birthday to Siti NoorSaleha. :)

2009-09-06T14:40:00.002+08:00

Alhamdullilah i've turn 18. i thank Allah for letting me live in the werld for 18 years. :)

im happy that i've grown up..

okay i'll make it short.

thanks for those whos given me those sweet wishes. i appreciate that very much.

thanks for remembering my birthday.

so sweet of u ppl.

alright. met up with babygirls few days back.

and im missing them.

i love u people! :)

birthday girl having migraine

2009-08-05T10:07:00.003+08:00

okay saw that AidahGok and her nvr ending photo taking session?

dammit! now at TTSH attachment-ing. i missing NUH participants!

i miss going to NHG college. :(

friday faster come pleaseeeeeeeeeee! hehe. *insertsadface*

so attachment was kinda hell but im still loving my patient. weee!

they are my light of life. hahaks!

they are the one who make me feel like going to werk and not going home.

but too bad. today one of my fav aunty gonna be discharge after braekfast. :(

and i didnt get to meet her the reason because i'm werking 2nd shift today. :(

sister tila is back from her Leave.

and she bought us the trainees a keychain. and im so happy you know why??

cause the keychain is eiffel tower. DAMN!!

my soon to be destination for my honeymoon!! *bigfathope!*

so anyways. this sister is better than that sister. hahaks!! *understand understood*

anyways. Ayu has always been there for me. thanks dear. (:

shes my babygirl. shes my walking home partner. everything. (:

thanks darla..

ohh.. i'm missing my babygirls too much and meetings had always been cancelled because of idk what the reasons were.

i missing my family.. eversince i started schling & werking. ive been spending less time with them. aww.. pls i'm missing the old time..

pleaseee rewind!! :(

oh dammit! im late for work. i've yet to iron my clothes and prepare food for my dinner break later.

prepare my uniform.. urgh! gotta go...

TOODLESS!! :)

Sempurna

2009-07-18T17:42:00.004+08:00

yessah! i'm done with my 2nd attachment.

it was not a good one. cause i was on MC for a day and i need to cover back on my wkends.

dammit!

and another thing, sister find fault with me. :(

but i'm not at the wrong position.

but whatever to you sister! (:

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee! meeting my schoolmate real soon.

cant wait..

tmr picnic-ing with my beloveds. weeeeeee!

thought of making egg sandwiches. idk. wanna inform aiisha first.

meeting my LilMissNana & Zouk & Fanana !!!!! woooohooo!

Zie, i know deep down in you, you're sad. dont be kay?

and i know you're a very strong girl unlike me. (:

stay cool ayte girlfriend? me & the other babes love you more than anyone does. (:

i feel something is not right. i feel like i'm missing someone

oh ya! someone told me that he wanna get married to me in 10 yrs time.

like real! puuuuuuuiiiii!!!! :P

Warness on the Soul

2009-07-12T15:17:00.005+08:00

Yahoooooooo! 1 week of school had gone.

& i'll be back in Tan Tock Seng for my 2nd attachment.

can't wait to meet all the cute patients. =x

and of course meet our CI; Joyce & Perceptor; Tham. (:

Exams have been kind to me. i manage to do it well. (:

Friday's practical exam, i was being paired with AyuDino!!! :)

WEEEEEEEE!! we were so excited to perform well.

end up both in the room was blur-ed. hahahaks!

i couldnt laugh out loud cause of Zalina.

but then in MRT was telling AyuDino that she was cute when she has the "cuak" face.

HAHAHAHHAKS!!!

i'm money-less. :(

i can't wait for my pay. please faster on the 25th pleaseeeeeeee.

weeeee. next weekend meeting LilMissNana, Aiisha, Zouk & Issalli!! weeehooo!!

we going picnic la sey. weeeeeeeeeeeehooooooooo!!!!

oh ! you took my love

2009-07-08T21:50:00.005+08:00

ohh gosh. tomorrow is my big day. hahaks! i'm exaggerating.

tmr having exams on performing patient care activities.

damn! i feel that this is the most challenging module ever. :(

lots of skill check list to be completed and tested on.

thanks to my group members initially was ParwathyMumy, IkaMonster & AyuDino.

den changed to ParwathyMumy, EddyMAN & SueCoke.

they were there to guide me. :)

vise versa.

i'm missing too much things in secondary sch. :(

life is not easy. i've been adjusting myself to the real world.

i'm lucky to have my new friends around me.

especially IkaMonster. shes there to make me laugh every morning. thanks babe. (:

AidahTom2 with her laughing gas.

AyuDino with her funny laughing sound. :P

thanks yaw. hahaks !

i'll make this short and sweet.

i'm loving with what i'm doing now because this is what i wanted. (:

and i love the ppl ard me.

*skrg, lu sudah laggar gua nye wire! buat darah gua up je!*

*inside joke!*

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

2009-07-05T19:22:00.004+08:00

first. went to TTSH to visit LilMissNana.

kesian die admitted. cause of internal bleeding? idk.

but manage to help her to go to pharmacy and collect her medicine with Zouk.

Zouk very nottie! keep pulling my bangles.

we were lost when going back to ward.

went back ward saw El. den proceed in.

chill2. time to go and meet my babygirls.

too bad ogy couldnt make it.

i didnt really spend much time with Zouk & Nana. haishh. next time perhaps.

at least get to meet them for a while. (:

ilang rindu ku kat drg. hahaks !

so met babygirls & the SURPRISE happened for babygirl Ninie. muacks!!

she was shocked! weeeeeeeeeee! heheks.

gave her the present. weeeeeeeeeee!

i'm feeling so happy as i get to meet my long missed babygirls.

haishh. when will we meet again? MY BIRTHDAY???

bowling?? weeeeeee!! but fasting month. lotsa forbidden uh dok. hahahks! ;p

okay. i love my babyboy so much.

he's being so nice to me. muacks! (:

tmr meeting my crazy mates! weeeeeeeee!

rest of the pic with zie&ninie!

2009-06-27T13:32:00.004+08:00

i've been wondering what is the reason you tryna avoid me.

but actually i should be thankful that you're leaving,

cause basically i'll not have any time for you.

i'll be busy with sch, attachment and of course my mom.

wo hen luan liao la!

woahh.. you got me hatin' on the club....

lalalalala~

i was bloghopping and i came across some blogs that knock some sense to me.

i notice they are... err how should i put it.

should i say i'm fortunate to be me?

i'm always happy. sadness seldom strikes me.

i can be 101% confident most of the time & seldom feel demoralised.

after the attachment in TTSH, i've realised that i'm a different person now.

i've yet to find out who am i and what am i now.

but i know im changing.

maybe in the character perspective? idk.

met alot of people during the course.

someone who is very selfish.

someone who is very proud & arrogant.

someone rude.

idk.. i'm confused.

i'm facing the real world now.

no more in dreamland.

i'm meeting my babygirls tmr man! weee! at last!

to celebrate our beloved ninie's bdae. (:

at somewhere! hahaks! bought a cute little present. hope she likes it.

cause i love it so much! ;p

i've yet to write her a card. dammit!

anyways. my beautiful TTSH clans are wonderful.

it's been great hanging out with them during lessons, lunch and home time. (:

great company : AidahMOK!, IkaMONSTER, AyuDino & SueCoke.

wahuhauhaua! i'm missing my secondary sch life.

especially my all time not hensem teacher MR FARAZ!!

i cant wait for tmr.

oh anyways. i'm starting to complete my mision in my life.

hahaks! wait till im done with the mission! MUACKS! (:

exams coming up. weeeeeeeeeeeee!

Reinvented.

2009-06-26T20:10:00.002+08:00

Hey Kiddoz! ;P
fheww! 1 week of attachment at ttsh was fun although tiring.
the staff there is friendly unlike few of them.
my hands are getting rough. BECAUSE been doing hand hygiene non stop.
da ilang keperempuanan ku! hahahaks!!

TTSH
friends have been great !
weehoo! we had our "reunion" lunch just now.
and reunion again after lunch for updates from Sister Joyce. (:
next wk going back to sch. weeeeeeeeeeeeeee! meeting the NUH trainees!
weeeeeeeeeee!!!

ever since i see almost all my patients are DIL.
im afraid it'll happen to my loves ones
mumy have been upset for the past few days.
haishh..

ok chiaos la! (:

2009-06-13T22:16:00.002+08:00

haluuu haluu..
okay i'm gone cause sch has started for me.
you people must be wondering where im schling isnt it?
since i didnt go poly or ITE.
hahaks okays. i'm schling at NHC. National Healthcare Centre.
nak jadi nurse la kan?
hahaks! i'm tight with bond with TTSH.

okay sch has been cool to me. both theory and practical are cool.
friends with the people there are superb!
most of my friends are those makciks2 and auntie2
but there are still girls around my age la.
and we have 2 male nurse. hahah!
one is chinese& the other is mly.
(:

aidah wanted to buy me a cotton's on shoe.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
hahaks!

met 2 of my babygirls last night.
everything went so well!
tmr we're going zoo! weeeeeeee
ogy must be excited.

dady bought me a RED psp man! woohooo!
AND nikon coolpix digi cam. weeeeeehoooooooooooo

okay thats all! (:
muacks!

When the clouds have all Departed

2009-05-25T12:44:00.004+08:00

what's up suckers? (:
okay first and foremost, CandyBoi broke my heart.
because he's in contact with other girls.
and that doesnt affect me at all cause basically you're a jerk! (:
thanks for coming to my life for just a minute.
and thanks for not leading me through your-oh-so-lame-life! (:
-end chapter-

oh! i went to cousin's chalet. (:
i met Luqman(online mate ; Asnida boyfie)
hahaks! as usual, he said i look different in pictures and real life. bleargh!
funny la eh. i just can't find any difference in my pictures.
catching up with those lovelies cousins.
laughed with those stupid sarcasm jokes and stuff. (:

things between me& Abg Syaiful is getting better. (:
i'm sorry once again.
Ash sent us to Downtown East yesterday and stupid sister keep disturbing me! grrr!

ohh. this is the most important thing i wanna share.
i get the sponsership from TTSH! and i've sign the contract!
and and and and !!! i'm starting sch on 8 June! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

yessah! kak lyn's wedding left with few days.
counting down ! less than a month.
sch holiday for kids are gonna start soon.
it's time for me to get serious now.
go all out for my new sch&job. (:
it's time for me to take care of the family since kak lyn's leaving with his spouse. (:
Insyallah, God will guide me through the right path.
and with all this stupid things happening in my life,
i want to shoo them away. hahaks!
okay? settle!

yaa. not forgotten, went esplanade with my fm-ians last Friday.
cool la kay? (:
first went to TTSH with LMN&Aiisha.
den met YayaGoth&Fanana at Kopitiam (:
then proceed to esplanade and Bobbystar&Apek Maori came.
followed by ArwahSic. (:
Zouk&Amilemon LATE LA!!
watched the gamelan show there and sing2. the usual thing.
Nice meeting you people. meet up again ya? maybe at the 29th work place? (:
we'll see if i can join. hahaks!

ohh! i have new friend named APEK KEMARI! (: hahaks!
Apek Maori jgn terase kay? =x *inside joke*

2009-05-20T20:30:00.002+08:00

okay Apeez keep disturbing my beauty sleep for the past few days.
he called me at 2, 3 & 4 am in the morning sey!
haiyoo! hope he doesnt disturb my sleep. if he does, he gonna get from me! :x

oh yes. i've been MIA. hahaks !
too busy and lazy to update la hoi!
okay tmr i'm going back to TTSH, to gave my 2 garantor's particulars.
yes, i got the sponsership to further my studies in the life sciences course. (:
thank Allah for fulfilling my wish. weeehoo!
Saly is excited & Happy!

but at the same time, Saly is disappointed cause Candyboi have not been calling me for past 2 days.
the day before the 2 days, he said he's ppd left few cents.
damn! why cant he just use line?
it just about time for us to you-know-la-eh? =x
you're cute, but now you're showing me things that my-useless-ex did to me. ):
damn! i hate this feelings that strikes me.
please i'm still waiting for my cellphone to beep.
but it's okay la kan? boys come and go. =x
i'll continue with my new-wonderful-life.

ohh did i tell you that edrie beep me again?
hahaks!
well nothing personal. he just passed me his new no.
ohh well, and pretended nothing happened?
hahahahaha!
he didnt even regard me as his gf anymore.
so it's over i guess? well. i dont care he ditched me or i ditched him.
the truth is he's a LOSER. (: nvr a winner you moron! :x

i'll start work soon after i sign my contract with TTSH.
less time to be BOYS, girlfriends & FM-ians.
ape tak oi! werking shift la sey.
but nvm la.

JAI HO! =x

i miss Fanana,Aiisha,LMN,Zouk,Ibliskidz,SR!,babyIrah & all my FM-ians!! ):

Live inside me

2009-05-11T16:54:00.003+08:00

im so frustrated!!! *immitating Aiisha*
*giggling*
okay being a good girl, i woke up and freshen up myself and went to ttsh.
for what?? urine for them. hahaks !

wells... lucky they say no blood. weeeeeeee!
so my medical check up is done !
i'll just wait the call from ttsh. (:

after the urine thingie,
Kak Ain being a good sister acoompanied me watch "jgn tegur" (:
okay la eh the movie. don't want to comment so much.

i'm missing my babygirls too much la. (:

aiisha is insane!

2009-05-09T22:21:00.002+08:00

holala! (:
first, i'm sorry cousin cause i give it a miss to your invitation today.
dady&mumy was too tired. :P

watched a band performance on tv in the morning.
i was being brought back to my old memories. damn!
everything that going on daily in my life reminds me of you.
but i keep myself strong.
doing my best to be iron lady.
i hate this shitty feelings sey.

i love guitar so much. just because of you.
you made me fall in love with the unique instrument as well as you.
but you left me just like that.
i'm still thinking of you although i told my friends i'm not.
i'm still missing you even though i still deny it.
how about loving you? i'm really not sure.
i'm still not used to not getting your calls.
damn!

now i'm listening to the oldies rock band. Wings.
damn! i love Awie can? i love his voice.
i love the guitarist too. he really reminds me of you.
missing listening to u sing and play your guitar on the phone.

am i still wishing for you to call me?
fat hope. your ego is as big the sea.
i have to admit i miss you so much.
but i'm moving on in life.
i'm sure i'll be happy without you in my life.
thank you for the wonderful memories.
it'll stay with me forever.
you're the most loving& pampered guy i ever had.
thanks.

i wanna get married to Awie please?

Born New

2009-05-08T21:17:00.006+08:00

okay what's up baggas?!
so? i went for medical check up earlier on in the morning.
damn! dady sent me there. it was super early man. the appointment was at 9.30am,
and dady sent me there around 8.45am.
WTH? hahaks. den just hang around at Square 2 shopping centre alone.
can you believe it? ALONE! hahaks!
all i did was walk in the square. hahaks. geddit?

went up to the human resource depertment. saw Aidah.
okay whus Aidah? my new friend. weeeeeeeeeeeee!
i was super talkertive. i made new friends on the day of my interview with TTSH. ahahaks.
i was asking question to Aidah.
asked her why nvr continue sch. hahaks.
she was excited when she saw me. :P so we went for our check up together.

went to the walk-in clinic, ht&wt checked. eye checked.
ohh. i'm not having my menses, but they say my urine got blood.
haiyerr. so next monday must go again and urine for them.
sound so wrong!. hahaks.

went for X-ray and saw Tini. :P and who is she? hahahaks !
she's my new friend too.
as usual being a kpo kid, i ask her name and all. we talked.
unfortunately, after Tini's X-ray, she must go back to the clinic for the doc to check on her.
and i'm done with everything.
being a good new friend, i accompanied her to the clinic and bid goodbye to Aidah.

talked lots of things with Tini.
she shared things about her family. i pity her. ): it's okay.
u gonna do well k babe.(:

anyways. i cant wait for 30th may. weeeeeeeee!
but i'm afraid i've started werking.
missing my babes real hard.
ohh. gf-Ain & gf-Zie was super happy for me.
they said the same exact thing. i love them.
i miss them. hurry to 30th May preety pls?

(:

Praise Upon God

2009-05-07T14:30:00.003+08:00

Alhamdullilah.
quite alot of good stuffs happened to me. (:
Thank God for that.

First up i found a new bestfriend called Faiz (Iz). (:
we talked, laughed & joke on the pone alot.
he's sick right now. having fever. swine u think? hahaks !
get well soon kay dearest?

Family has been cool & good to me.
kak Lyn's wedding is nearing, that makes me sad.
cause the sisters bonding. soon there will be a gap. ):
i'm gonna miss her so much when shes at her soon-to-be-husband crib.

yesterday was my interview with TTSH.
everything went so smooth and well.
& WALLA! they just called me few mins ago.
they want me to go for medical check up tomorrow. (:
so meaning i'm in the process of getting the job kan?? hahaks!
okay not putting so much hope but still hoping. :P

im missing someone right now.
don't worry its not edrie. (:

thats all folks! muah!

no broken-hearted-girl.

Joyous

2009-05-04T12:34:00.007+08:00

hey kiddo! hahaks ! :P
okay. i was super duper happy. cause we had our gf reunion yesterday. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
hahaks ! we did nothing but just catching up with one another.
where? at mac cafe civic. hahahks !
all secrets reveal and non-stop teasing each other. :P
i'm in LOST season 10. geddit babes? lol.

i was late as usual for the reunion.
gf-ita was late too, well reasonable cause she has to attend a wedding reception. (:
but the rest was super duper cute! heheks !
i love them okay? muacks !
meet up real soon and quick k sugardrops. (:

last week, went to MOE with beloved nana&aiisha. (:
how sweet can it be? aiisha skip sch just to follow me.
but partly, she was late for sch la kan.
ehh.. i'm not the one whu asked her to skip sch okay? :P
den met nana at adm as she didnt know that aiisha was with me. (:
talk here, talk there, picture here, picture there. :P

den aiisha wanted to meet fanana.
so yearps. waited for fanana to finish sch at 5+

received a text from gf-ninie, she wanted a company to the library.
since i was at civic. so i waited for her too. (:
yearps. she looked kinda stress and depressed.
due to some reason la kan. there no need for me to write it here. (:
so yearps.

kak lyn's wedding preparation is goin on well.
its just that i need microsoft word's software to type the itenary.
grrr!! razi forgotten to bring it yesterday.
so i'm cracking my brain where to find it.
i don't wanna buy it. :P

ohh well. i'm going out later to meet my sister for our work out session. hahahaks !
anyways. i'm having and interview tmr afternoon.
insyaallah i will get the job. *praying* (:

imissingmyTeachers'Heaven! (: muacks !

imissingmyGIRLFRIENDS too! (:

DISAPPOINTMENT

2009-04-24T13:09:00.003+08:00

idk, i'm just blank.
i have lots to blog but i'm lost of werds.
i'm missing lots of things. the risk that i'm taking,
i'm not gonna search you out.

something just triggers me and it made me feel useles. ):
idk, seriously. what is the fucking thingie that keeps bugging me.
it seems that i'm trying to run away from it.

ohh God, you're the only one who can help me.
please keep me to ease and calm. i'm missing him too much.
i just want to know the reason why he's doing this.
sometimes, i wonder why am i so stupid to be with him.
Fucking lotsa time you keep hurting. but still i've not yet learned my lesson.
still carry on loving you.
you're not being fair to me ; i'm not being fair to myself.

i'll not make you my 1st priority in my life &i'll make u an option in my life.
Thank You boy.

-CLOSE CHAPTER-

okay. i've open a new love life with NUNU! weeeeeeeeeeeeee!! hahaks !
our official date is 23rd April 2009 @ 10.06pm.
that's was when our love start to bloom! hahahs !

Loving u hubby NUNU! ;p

anyways, my fingers are getting numb now. :P
keep playing my new baby(guitar) from last night..
weeeeee. i'm loving my skills and my music teacher.
OH HE SO CUTE! :P okay. i'm off for now k?

Ya Tab Tab

2009-04-17T10:43:00.006+08:00

okay. don't ask me why i've gone missing for quite sometime.
because im plainly lazy to update. seriously, i'm tired of blogs.
zie & ogy started schling already. ): meaning; no more time will be spend together??
idk. feel kinda sad.
they gonna meet new friends. but deep down me, i believe they still love us.
OF COURSE! stop thinking the other way round laaaaa!!

received text-ed from babygirl- ninie.
asked me if i wanted to go breakfast. but at that point of time it was 7+am.
damn! she's early man. hahaks! but then i was too sleepy, i couldnt reply.
i read the text and continue sleeping. ;P
den woke up and reply her text.
plan punye plan. tak jadi.
because father bring back food for me then summore right,
i stomach crap la siak! then thought of going to the indian lady to do something to my eyebrow. but everything cancel.

another fucked up thingie was mumy don't allow me go out la siak!
grounded siol! bingit jek. :P
summore wanna go out no money uh.

okay whatever webcamming with hakiimBEM ngan LilMissNana&Coffeetoon can go crazyyyyyyy! :P
was super bored in the morning.
so cammy with both my lovely fm-ians. :P hahahahks!
then right then right, called ZOUK! cause LilMissNana got dedication for him.
woohoooooooooo!
so loving right my father and mother?? sayang them y'know. :P

babygirl-ita just beep & said that class reunion will be on 9th may. cool kape? hahaks!
missing THE TEACHERS' HEAVEN LA SIAKKKKKKK! :P

okay. i love all my fm-ians k? babyida, get well soon!
muacks!

CRUSH

2009-04-06T19:30:00.005+08:00

holla backgirl ! HAHAHAHA!
okay CRAP !

had a tremendous day yesterday la siol !
hahaha !
first, was waken up by this idk-how-to-explain-kinda-feeling call.
it's a phone call from ZOUK la siakkk!
HAIYERRR!!!!

father: daughterr!!! baru bgn tdo eh??
doter: yeah (with suare sooo tak perlu!)
f: bgn la daughter!!! siap!! dtg NUH!!
d: uhh.. (dlm hati malas siak!)
d: sape ade?
f: kite 3 org je. father, mislyna ngan mother(nana).
*background voice : daughter!! dtg uh!
den talked to nana.
*zouk background voice : da da!! daughter bgn skrg laa! siap.

den okay la hang up.
fine. we've been planning too and so much but eventually we didnt get the chance to meet. :P
so dgn semangat nye i woke up and get ready.
was thinking what to tell mumy.
lied& eventually told her the truth.

text adeq fanana ask her if she wants to come along.
yes! she was shocked i texted her cause we so called had a conflict weeks ago. :P
but we're totally fine now. (:
so met her at wdls mrt.

changed of plan, went to nana cribs for moment cause she just got home.
zouk went to werk. *cian my father.* ):
& went to NUH.
and met ZOUK!!!. wooohoo!
like at last right father? ;P haha!!

then visit kak ida aka babyida in ICU.
haish.. pity her. but its okay she is very very strong.
she cried when she was talking to us.
wanted to feed her eat. but she refused. maybe its too painful.
ape tak oii! operate her heart valve siol ! mesti pain man! (:

zouk has to werk. ): didnt really spend time with him&nana.
but its okay la. met for a while and grab a family photo is fine to me. (:
missing them right now.

later on, met misLyna at jurong.
train-ed down to wdls and grab our dinner cause i SUPER hungry like monster!
and Aym saw me and called out my name. but too bad i couldnt find him till he text me.
hahahks ! :P
den iskandar called and asked where am i.
co-incidently he was at cold storage and i'm at macD.
so we meet up. (: :P

after that my super duper gerek part !
went 656 and meet REMUS CHA MING YANG!!!!! wooohoo!
miss him sia!
so lepak and catched up with one another. (:
too bad gtg cause im werking the next day.
hug remus b4 going home and gone!

cabbed home with nana,fanana&lyna. (:
fanana so manje! kepit jek with me. love her la to max.
nice knowing lyna. first time meet but we hug each other like we've known each other for years. :P
so missing them right now. (:

tmr meeting my precious babygirls!
WOOOHOOO!
i bought something for you girls ! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
hope u girls love it, like it, hate it, WHATEVER! okay crap! hahahaks!

muacks !

2009-04-02T17:47:00.006+08:00

booohoo ! okay, i've been missing for quite a moment. ;p
first and foremost, congrats to WRS Symphonic Band for obtaining Silver this year. (:
it was a tough journey for the leaders and the members.
it's hard to lead a large group of people.
i've been one of the Majors before. it's tough.
good job lovelies ! i'm so pressive with their sound. easily said they break the old band's tradition;wont elaborate more. i'm afraid some people will get offended.
they are cool bunch of musician. (:
i was smiling to myself when they were presenting their music in Singapore Conference Hall. (: keep on working hard.
make sure participate in other Competitions around the world.
& don't forget to bring me along. it feel so good when your juniors still remember u.(:
love u people. (:

2nd-ly, followed the musicians down to SCH and i get to meet my lovelies.
meet the other bunch of Alumni. (:
especially Kelly&KokSeng. miss them too much ! :P

met shira last week and catched up with her alot of things.
GOSSIP was the first thing we did. :P hahaha ! (:
love her&missing her right now.

kak lyn's wedding will be in 2 mnths time. weehoo !
i have lotsa things to do. Itenary, room decoration and ETC.

tmr ITE sch result will be out.
nerve wracking? nahh. not at all. :x

zie's gone to penang. damn ! i'm all alone right now till sunday.
thought of having dinner with my babygirls next monday.
cause i bought them something ! ;p

okay cool. to whom it may concern.
i know& i admit i love u.
but i've ended our relationship till here.
i'm sick&tired of all the threaten-s u gave me. all the un-caring words and un-caring actions.
it's utterly disappointment from u. serious, u're not a dear to me anymore.
;after u said imma liar w/o finding the fucking real truth.
i'm sick and tired of watching out for my phone every 10 mins.
i know i have to end this. and move on.
Insyallah i will. i'm not gonna break down. NO WAY ! (:

i'm missing my FM-ians.

WRSS Alumni

KokSeng
Kelly, Cosine(sir's wife), yours truly, Joanne
KELLY

when your gone

2009-03-26T19:35:00.007+08:00

currently i'm really mad at ash.
BECAUSE! he don't remember when is my birthday.
okay. i asked a very very random question.
"ash, what are u getting for my birthday this year?"
and he said he forgotten when is my birthday.
at the moment of time i was super fed up !
HAHAHAHA ! false statement. ;P
i bloody got nothing to do and purposely get mad at ash.
okay whatever la ash k? hahahks !

anyways, i'm officially off with Edrie Hashim.
don't wish to tell why; because i lazy wanna type. =x
Lilmissnana&Zouk keep me companied the next day on the phone.
we talked and laughed alot. (: great.
thanks mother and father. (: meet up soon k parents. (:

okay. dyea told me that patrick wanna make a bbq for all the sec 5s.
but i can't ! ash can't, zie can't and i havent even ask the others.
susah laaaaaa !

okay since i've started working again. updates will be lesser. hahaks !
ITE application result coming out soon.
okay im not nervous or whatever shit.
idk what i'm gonna do next if the application failed.

outs.

i miss these her and them:

Now Showing

2009-03-18T10:48:00.006+08:00

boohoo ! hahaks !
guess what? iskandar saved my day; yesterday.
he asked me out to watch movie with him.
weeeehoooo !
we watched 'coming soon'.
gf-ita joined us after so much consideration at the counter, we planned to watched the 7.15 show. :P

i didnt know that is was a horror movie until i was at the cinema.
how BODOH can i be eh?
iskandar uh ! didnt really explain what the movie is all about.
& my stupidity, i didnt even ask him what issit about.
hahaks !

while waiting for ita at civic's macD, we called up alot of friends.
'konon nak activate member eh is?' hahaks !
den continue waiting for ita at library.
we went to find magazines and we were camwhoring. :P
laughing to ourselves while reading 'apo' magazine.
smoke-ed. chitchat together. hahaks !

den movie time.
after ; dinner at macD.
ohh iskandar's birthday is coming soon.
and maybe we're going bukom. wooooohooooooooo !!

before meeting mumy&sister, chitchat with both lovelies.
i love u both !
seeya soon !
;p

awww! i love cheesy sausage !

Lucky I'm in Love with my BESTFRIEND

2009-03-16T20:33:00.004+08:00

second post of the day? u'uh~ because basically, i'm practically bored.

babyboy is busy with his guitar practice.
damn ! he can practice the whole day and "ignore" me. *bleah !*
but nvm la, since he need the time so much. let him be.
as long he's happy and improving, i'm happy for him. (:

ouh ! babygirl-zie have given me those pictures.
i love those pictures. when we gonna have our reunion again uh? *smiling widely*
because i'm missing you girls. awwww NAJIS !

okay, syf coming and ive yet to visit my juniors. URGH !
what kind of senior am i? dammit ! i miss them too.
oh! and i miss playing my clarinet. ;p

okay, let's end today's post with some pictures of me&my babygirls ! ~

cuckooBARA !

2009-03-16T14:46:00.003+08:00

SO RANDOM PICTURE

first of all, welcome back SALYIEHA !
hahaha ! I've been missing for quite sometime.
oh wait, let me calculate. total of 3 weeks and 22 days. long? nahh. ahahaks !
so, i think, i'll just gonna update what happened recently uh? (:
i practically cant remember what the hell happened for the past few weeks betol?
*insert upin tone kinda speaking.*

alrights first up, met my beautifully, gorgeously and importantly BABYGIRLS !, on saturday *excited mode*
okay and i cooked!
okay, it doesnt turn out to be like what i wanted. :P BLEAH!!
so we watched movies at ita's crib and laughed at every thing.
as usual, our lame jokes and cool little stuff.
camwhoring is our hobbies and say "SIAPE LA KITER !" *inside joke* geddit babes?
lunch-ed and dinner.
we get tipsy with our peach and lemon tea.
groove right&left with the music.
oh ! not forgetting don't forget the lyrics. HAHAHA! the sherade thingie.
laughing gas out babygirls ! :p

yes, happy belated bdae to AYM ! ily! (:
and met is few day back after movies with babygirls. :p
my baby getting hotter eh is?? aww. haha!

anyways, aiisha&babyirahh having picnic on wed.
still considering to come. insyaallah, if babyboy not meeting me. heheks !
but i want to go, i miss this 2 cutie little pie of mine.
da mcm adeq ku sendiri but too bad,
aiisha has to be my grandma and babyirahh my daughter. :p ily!

you'll wear that shoe and i'll wear that dress k sayang?
i sayang edrie MALMSTEEN ! (:

AWESOME

2009-02-22T22:50:00.004+08:00

dear diary ! weeehee ! alrightey..
i had a superb weekend can? :p haha !
it's like AT LAST ! i get to meet my mother NANA !
yessah. lovin' it.

met my fm-ians; nana, aiisha, stino, babyirahh, fanana, jack2, nunu & josh.
went to babyirahh's bday party mah !
her bdae tmr seyy.
before that went to chompang CC lepak first.
met ice, lolok, nanastar and sommore dont know who. =x hahaha !!!

awesome la can?? great bunch.
meet up soon yea?
ohh. fanana, used to be close sis eh? alermak. soon, we will become close again k syg?
busy la love ! ily ! (:

alrights, tmr's babyirahh's real birthday. *GIGGLING*
wish u happy birthday k girl? wishes come true la k? hehe !
i'm not good at giving wishes uh babe. =x
and also wish u like the pressie me, nana &aiisha bought for u.
last min nye la babe. ;p tapi nice right???! hahahahha !

guitar lesson was great can? hahah !
teacher Albert is so cute.
guitar is fun but i'm stress cause im getting use to the fundamentals.
weeeeheee !
but i can do it. *thinking of completing my mission in june.* :P

okay i gtg and sleep now, tmr waking up early la sial ! =x
love my weekends.
fadil miss me!!!

FANANA !!!
BABYIRAHH aka bday girl
AIISHA

Ibliskidz aka BANGLA!

NANA aka mother kus!

rique aka brother!

It's not over tonite.

2009-02-17T16:12:00.008+08:00

boohoo !
hahaks !

okay. ive gone for long. it's time for my arrival. :P
basically ive spend my time GREAT-ly w/o edrie. =x
but somehow or rather i get kinda lonely. ):
but nvm ! i still have my other babyboys. :P

okay. gonna wish belated valentines day to all couples.
i celebrated my valentine's day with sis and babygirl fifye. weeeheee !
okay wait! i dont have our pics with me. it is still with babygirl.
so wait up for the arrival. ;p went shopping at bugis like nobody business.
bought bangles, vintage dress, black skirt and lots more. woohoooooo ! :P

ciggs keep me company when i'm bored.

okay. sunday went out to cousin's crib to doll her up.
unfortunately, i didnt take syamimi's pic. grrr!
played with syamimi's 3 sons. weehee! i'm loving umar~!!!

monday i went to werk as pernormal
today? slack at home. HAHAHAH !
applied for ITE. *praying hard that i get the course. ;x

ouh, eezan came to my crib and lepak-ing and smoke-ing. hahaha!
miss those old times kan babe??
ape lagi? we were bitching about people and catching up with each other. ;p
ily baby! =)

JACK2 GILE!
i syg aiisha! (:

UMAR!abu bakar
Hamzahmy BACEN!
your's truly
fifye missing =x

my baby UMAR !

to didi, mumy will activate kite nye member soon k babygirl? (:
love u!

electropop

2009-02-10T20:17:00.003+08:00

booooooo! ;p
actually i don't know what to scribble.
basically, i have nothing to say. :P

you're the reason why i'm thinking. but now? i've stop thinking.
how wonderful it is for my FM-ians friends made me happy with their stupid joke ;
just to cheer me up. wonderful people la them! (:
thanks aiisha for always being there for me. you nvr stop making me feel good (:
jack2 lagi satu, thanks for making me laugh with your stupid lame jokes and your non-stop-teasing.
not forgetting ice, although last min he knew bout my situation, he also console me.

bro&sis is the best la! (: syg krg!
i miss zieITAninieAinOgySHIRAdidiSEMUALA!!

ohh. i went to work just now. err. it was NORMAL! hahaha!
i'm organizing a slumber party dont know either at ninie's or ogy's crib. weehee! (:

ouhh. & i'm still waiting for your call dearie. (:
i miss lilmissnana! OMG! now i realise i miss lotsa people. &i miss alfiee too!
i miss my 4 hot hunks! IS,WAN,FIDO,AFAD. :P

still ; i'm blank again. oh! did i say i havent decide to retake O lvl or go nitec.
because, the application for nitec course is open again.
c'mon saly! wake up and make a decision now ok baby?! hahahaha!

boy, you don't waste my bloody time k edrie?!
get out of my bloody mind. okay. lalalalala~
why?, cause i'm loving new babyboy? err. jk! ;p

downcast

2009-02-09T20:35:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling very sleepy after i took my medication.
but still i couldnt sleep in peace.
this thing is bothering me. really bothers me.
world seemed to be full of hard elbows and backbitings.

when i'm ready and already finding the happiness with you, your leave.
idk, i'm in what mood right now.
it can be cranky, upset, angry or even frustrated.
frustrated&angry cause being accused.
upset&disappointed cause of the false accuse.-ment?

idk. seriously. mumy and siblings must be worried seing me crying in the dark room all alone. how caring can they be?
gfs, consoling me ; making me cry even more.
how fortunate i am to have them on earth being with me?

idk, felt very rejected and super duper low with your words.
imy. ):
haishh..
i miss u badly. serious. )':
miss talking to u till late night hearing u playing your guitar and sing for me.
miss your chitty chatty mouth.
miss your kiss. ):
miss everything about you.
miss his nasty jokes.
miss his stupid question "can i slp with u tonite?"
miss u calling me mama. ):
why? why must is be now? why not few months later?
haishh..

2009-02-09T09:41:00.004+08:00

my happy family

i didnt go to work cause my fever have not subsided yet.
but still i have to go to mumy's canteen cause dady wanna bring me to consult doc.
soon i'll go out. taking MRT, or cab. not sure we'll see. (:

yesterday's birthday celebration was okay okay laaa.
cause my bro wasnt there. ): but after the celebration went to his house.
unfortunately fauzi told me that he went out to meet his friends.
haiyoooo!

we celebrated dady and pak ngah's birthday at one go.
chatted with Asnida about Luqman(her bf-which was my friend!)
haha! we were laughing at each other. hahahaha!
den kak ain&Asnida keep talking about bfs.
err.. i just keep quite.
speechless.

ouh anyways. i'm offically single now; cause i just broke up with edrie 2 days ago.
i couldnt find the reason why.
but all i know is he said im rude towards him and nvr care about him.
bullshit isnt it?
who give him words of encouragement when he couldnt play his guitar?
who was on the phone with him when he is practising his guitar?
who advise him to go for jamming when he didnt want to cause he knew how suckish his playing was.
who?? tell me uh edrie.. who?
of course uh u told me u've changed. tried to call me everyday. i appreciate that.
but i treat u like a rose and u treat me like BULLSHIT?!
thanks uh love. seriously, thanks eh? (:

i miss my babygirls,babyboys&all!

2009-01-27T21:37:00.005+08:00

OKAY! gerek! monday was spent with full of love and food!
HAHAHA!

first went for pengajian at tampines.
far isn't it? haha!
well what to do. NOTHING! ;p
after pengajian, went to mr teh tarik and had our late breakfast, early lunch.
had fried rice and rojak. the fried rice not bad. but the rojak is very very bad! =x

blaahh blaaah blaaah~~

wanted to go busu house.
but! called and they say they were at don't know which beach. PICNIC-ING!
urghh! tk bilang siang2!
so planned cancelled, went to abg syaiful's house and lepak. =x
den at 3 met mumy at bugis.
mumy train-ed to bugis siol!
went to arab street and bought our KAIN! for kak lyn's wedding. weeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

den walk here walk there. lapar!
had murtabak at victory. kak rohani's father nye kedai! hehe!
ok wait! do u notice almost all my sentence contain exclamation mark!. =x see?!
hahahaha!

den train-ed to changi airport.
weeeheee.. jln2 la seyy.. den went to swensens.
weeeeheee!! AIS CREAM TIME!
but unfortunately, i'm still full. i oni share ice cream with kak ain. ;p

den da malam... bus-ed home~ weeehee!
i'm loving the quality time im spending with my family.
except dady. kesian die kene work. ):
but nvm! his bdae coming. and we gonna celebrate with my father's side family.
err.. wait, get what i mean?~ hahaha! whatever sucker! =x

can meet my beloved bro!
yeay! friday meeting aiisha and jackjack.
sape nk join beep me yea fm-ians! (: MUACKS!

my mushroom soup in sour bread
kak ain's fish baked rice
mumy cute face after getting her banana split!
see how engross kak lyn is with her ice cream!
awww so sweet! *OPPS!me in tudung!
my love!
MUMY!
kak ain&mumy
kak lyn and FUTURE-BRO-IN-LAW

ohh. Alhamdullilah, me and babyboy is getting better and better.
it's improving. infact, he called me lotsa times today.
had a good talk with him just now. (:
awww we just loving each other cause both of us love music.
weehee! okay!
i dont't wannt talk much about babyboy here.
cause soon i'm gonna reveal who he is. (:
ily smoochie!
HAHAHAH! (:

2009-01-23T19:40:00.003+08:00

idk how should i start this. suddenly i felt so lost and sad.
this feelings strikes me right after i woke up from sleep.
i felt so tired after i came back from melawat Ain's father.
even now, i'm typing i feel like crying.

it is difficult to carry on with life w/o any one of our parents.
i may not experience it but Ain is still young to accept all this.
but afterall, its faith from Allah.
whatever it is she still have to accept this.
thanks Allah, Ain made to poly.
at least there's something she can be happy of.
the news was conveyed to me when i was busy working.

i suddenly felt so sad for her and worried for myself.
i wonder what will happen to me w/o my parents.
how will she manage her financial.
how she manage the family w/o the head of the family.
URGH! dammit. i really feel so scared if this happen to me.
cause practically and mentally i'm not ready for all this.
i need my parents to be with me all the time.
i realised, i've been rude and a bad daughter to my parents.

i've realised, i have to appreciate them more than be a rude daughter.
haishh...
this incident really knock and bring some sense to me.

seriously, daddy went for his mosque dinner at town area today.
he left when i'm asleep, but somehow or rather i was half asleep.
i heard him going out and sis was advising and reminding him to be careful.
see how panick sis is?
haishhh.. i'm so worried.
just worried about my parents safety.

Ain, what ever it is u still have us. Yes i know its not the same.
we can't replace ur father's place right?
but we as ur friends are ready to help u if or as and when u need it.
we love u babe.
if u happen to read this, we really really love u.
i may not know hows the feeling like loosing a father at ur age.
but as usual, u can share it with me babe.
i really want to bring back colours to ur mom's life.
Insyallah, if i can help, i will. (:

you take care of yourself yea my babygirl?
i love u more than anything. (:

happy 3rd mths me&Edrie. (:

2009-01-18T01:19:00.003+08:00

been caught up with work now yaw. =x hahaha!
okay so, heard about the results. okay i'm not boasting or whatever shit.
but i didnt fare for my O lvls. so next path, no other choice
although i'm not planning to go ITE, still i have to. (:

it's okay after all, i applied for the course that i want if i'm qualified for poly.
so no much different.
let's not talk about it.

i'm happy cause my friends still love me, and vice versa. (:
i cant wait for 1st Feb!! WEEEEEHOOOOOOOOO!

ouhh, ive been searching for haikel up and down,
high and low.
not been found. do call me ya dude if u happen to read this.
i miss u la deng! (:

peace yaw!

2009-01-11T11:55:00.004+08:00

alrights.. have been spending time working. FHEEWWW! tiring.
i took my off day from mumy on friday, to attend TP & NYP open houses.
hahaha! TP open house was okok la for me, cause most of the courses doesnt ring my bell. =x
i'm plainly not interested in engineering and design. maybe i'm not the hands on type? (:
accompanied my babygirls to the courses they wanted to know more.

went to applied science sch at TP, but unfortunately no one welcomed us.
err.. understood la, i think their tired. (:
saw abg Syaiful at his booth, i just smile and walked away. =x
hope he didnt feel offended. :P
saw jel and quraisha. (:

after few tiring walks in TP, proceed to TM for our late lunch.
den train-ed to NYP. that's the sch that i've been wanting to go.
the very first thing when i entered, i went to the nursing booth.
weeeheee!! everything seems so interesting~! (:
talked to the students and lecturers. they told me lotsa things.

so basically, you diary know which course i've been eye-ing for? (:

met fadil(cousin) and his chinese classmate. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
they are friendly as i nvr thought. :P
they might not know me, but they talked to me as if they know me for few months?
hahahaha!

den proceed to the NYP carpark met farah(cousin's gf)
and farah's classmates joined us. that was ko(idk how to spell his name bt he's a mly), yusof & aidil(i'm not so sure about the name, but thats what i heard from cousin)
talked, chilled and joke ard with them.
they were cool people la kan... cute sommore..
BEKENAN MAK!!! hahahahaha!

so anyways, i'm trying to distract myself with something that can make me smile.
but unfortunately, tmr's the release of O lvl result.
well.. i'm not sure what the outcome will be like.
but, i'm ready for the good and not good outcome.
i've prepare myself with both situation.
i'm kinda cool now. i think i can take and face both situation.
but i dont think i can face the reaction of the people ard me.
but its okay... afterall, it's all about me. (:

keep praying. (:

went JB with family & nenek. :P
APE LAGI?? DA DPT GAJI!! SHOPPINGGGG!!
HAHA! didnt shop much, just shop earring and studs.
wanted to get a havanas sandal, but the sales promoter doesnt seems interested.
so F! u! hahahha! (:
WALKED AWAY.

i love the day... (:

MISSED

2009-01-03T21:29:00.021+08:00

i kissed a girl and i like it,

the taste of her cherry chapstick..
i kissed a girl just to try it,
i hope my boyfriend don't mind...
* singing...

alright new year celebration has always been the same for me,
except for the time where i get to celebrate with... beloved kokseng,jel,shiting and shahreen.
(:
i'm suppose to hang out with babygirls on new yr eve,
but.... by the time i got to the hang out area,
its time to go home cause Ain can't stay for long. so i gave it a missed.
chilled at home with dearie sis.

OUH!! ANYWAYS, HAPPY NEW YEAR! although it may be too late. :P
err.. yes.. pray the best, good health and good wealth in the upcoming years of life people!
cause its recession right now! HAHAHAHA! :P

ouh yaa.. first day of work was URGHHH!! shagged!
Alhamdullilah mumy business is coming along quite well.
meaning, i'll have to work for her even harder and alot more tidious work to complete. bleaarrgghhh!! =x

to my baby fynaz, chill yea baby..
hope u'll consider about what i've told you.
well.. i know its difficult la.
but. well.. u know la kan? (:
& ohhh
i love you no matter what bebs! (:

anywayssssss... i miss this peeps!! enjoyss~

TOODLES!! (:

thought i couldnt live w/o you

2008-12-30T23:20:00.007+08:00

awesome! been dumping this diary for 2 days. or more in fact?
babygirls just can't stop make me smile and laugh.
never ending teasing me.
making fun of people is our all time favourite hobbies!
looking at hot hunks coming into the MRT. flirty ~~NINIE!!~~
same goes to me. tapi! ku ttp step cool je! :P

2008 will come to an end in less than 24 hrs. (:
let my wishes be by myself.
1429 has come to an end in islamic calender.
wallaaaa! it's 1430! i pray for the best for my family, friends and all the people ard me. (:
and again, let my ambitious wishes be in my cutie little pocket. :P

I MISS THIS CANADIAN MAN!

where the rainbow ends

2008-12-27T20:20:00.005+08:00

boy you make me feel alive. weeee!
saw it? new blogskin uh! err.. but i kinda not satified with it.
still gonna search a better one. (:

urgh! i'm shagged. stay at home is heaven but bore at times.
err.. nothing much about my life. been busy with fm-ing. HAHAHA!
those jokers and peoples occupy my time at home. :P

okay. i dont-know-exactly-what-is-it-feels.
some sort of nervous?
or excited?
noe why?!!!!!!~ cause i'm meeting my babygirls.
weeeeeheee.
but w/o babygirl ain. ):
simply because she's having jemputan. GRRR!

alright. just cant wait for tmr. wooohoo!
i miss my all time favourite joker! MUAHAHAHA!

(:
peace

it has come to an end

2008-12-23T22:09:00.003+08:00

i terribly hate this feelings. no one can and will understand how i feel.
ego? nah. i don't think so, cause after all i was the one who gone through it.
all alone.
my thoughts was to text my babygirls and let them know abt the situation i am in.
but my fingers just can't text the msg to them, or should i say it my heart.
i don't want them to worry about my non-stop complains about him.
cause after all, i'm gonna be okay with him.

the night has told me. i did have my guts and confronted how i felt.
still, no actions taken and oh! act-ed as if nothing happen.
i'm feeling very i-don't-know-how-to-describe.
i'm not sure if i need someone to talk to.
i felt like a toy being thrown one side, when needed it will get back on hand.
it's isn't for me. or is it karma?
you know i only love you although i do contact with other bustards.
and yet you still ask, whereas you allowed me to.

did it ever cross your mind why i did so? you wanna know the fucking reason?!
because you fucking don't care about me. call me twice or thrice a week? is that what u called "i'm there for you."?
threaten me that you'll call me next month instead of tmr? is that what a boyfriend should do?
the next time you called, said sorry and told me it was just meant as a joke.
the call was few days or should i say it weeks later?
how can i tolerate with this?
the hang ups phone on me was like a habit after you promised you won't do it again.

and next, you said it was my fault. listen!
all i need was your attention, care, and IDK! *speechless*

my friends are all by my side. i want and need time to heal all this.
i ain't those girls who's asking for attention from guys who read my blog &sympathize.
hell to ya!
cause i'm just letting out how i'm feeling right now.

i'm gonna stand tall and strong.

2008-12-15T17:56:00.006+08:00

hey yaw! ~ (: weeeeheee.. i'm just feeling cool and happy. IDK why.
but! me & zie are in good terms right now! yiipeeeee!
weeeeeeeee. must maintain it that way ya babe?
chat-ed with her quite alot! weehee..

i'm happy cause, im getting my jeans to be altered.
getting new sandals. from CK maybe? heeee.
anyways, this week kinda a good week for me?
cause been spending quality time with my sis. (:
well she's becoming better and better in time. heee!
she's sch-ling during night time.. taking up business course. do your best sis! (:

ohh! me and sis went out for a date few days back.
we had lunch at banquet. she bought me the food.
weeeehhheee.. den we went for a movie ; QUARANTINE.
nice la the show. kinda cool and exciting cause lotsa suspend. made me scream at anytime. everyone was laughing lor! =x
i wanna catch YES MAN! and TWILIGHT! its a must! (:

yes, after that we went to print some pictures to put inside our wallet.
hahaha! (:

kak lyn's wedding preparation is becoming complicated. ):
mumy wanted to change the cook to another better and recognised company.
the hadrah also kak ain wanted tepak sireh, so we'll see how la uh~ (:

ouh yaa. i've not been updating because everyday,
because my life is still the same.
just stay at home, slack, eat and watch tv. talk non stop with siblings and parents.

i miss my babygirls.
zie coming back today.
YIPEEE! gonna meet them real soon. and of course meet up with my primary babes. weeeeeeeee. wednesday perhaps? (:
MUACKS!

tata! (:

Protect You From The Pain

2008-12-14T14:31:00.006+08:00

heylo earthling! (: weeeeeeeeeeeee

at last! find the effing time to update my blog ya? =x
well, comp was reformat-ed by razi for the past few days.
so basically, after that i just online and start downloading few softwares. (:
and all i did was edit my pic. kekekeke!

ouh yes!, i met up with my babygirls last saturday.
err.. kinda disappointing cause zie & hennie couldnt make it.
but its okay, i'll organize a new meet up ya?
so basically, when to shaw house and had our lunch. catched up with one another.
laughing gas produced. weeeeeeeeeeee! i'm missing them right now~ (:
i'm lovin' them! HEHEHE! they are the best, INCLUDING zie & nie ya?!

Hari Raya celebration was okok la? went to hospital to visit grandma.
then, proceed to busu's crib for doa selamat and Fadil's bdae celebration.
i love u bro! (: he's the bestest cousin ever! we share every of our dirty lil secret! (:
hearts u! (:

ouh yes! i'm still jobless thank goodness!
aryani offered me a job at eunos, but mumy kinda reluctant to let me go.
it's not that i'm mumy's girl or what la. it's about the transport money u see? (:
so yearp. still jobless.
YES! aym offered me to be his Personal Assistant. HAHAHAHA!
he must be joking. he's a busy man. weeeeeeeheeeeeee!
it's ok, gonna meet him up and discuss things out. (:
we'll see how ya lovely? hehe.

now, organising to meet up with my primary babes. weehee.
insyaallah, we'll get to meet ya? i'm missing u babes too sugardrops! (:

tata! (:

After all we've been through

2008-12-05T15:57:00.006+08:00

I MISS THEM!

Hey faggot! i've yet to bath and it's already afternoon.
all i do at home is sleep, wake up, eat and sleep and the routine carries on.

i've still yet to find a suitable job for myself.
i'm cracking my head how am i suppose to pay for kak lyn's wedding cake.
I NEED A JOB BADLY!
but i want to do sales.
i dont fancy barista.

staying at home can be heaven and boredom at times.
but i'm experiencing boredom most of the time.
can't wait for sunday to arrive. meeting my babygirls!
at last! i'm outta house. i need fresh air like SERIOUSLY!
i miss my gfs badly. ):

parents, kaklyn, abg syaiful and his mom out to JB.
to look out for wedding stuff.
next thursday gonna book the "kompang" thingie.
ouhh well that guy called me MAKCIK?! HAHAHAH! grrrr!

not a single text come in since yesterday, 2am.
not even one ARSEHOLE!
i'm still waiting.
i hate it when i have to look out for my phone if there's text coming in every second,
and there's not even a single msg comes in.

not sure, what are you tryna convey here MR!
but, i'll wait and see.
ouhyea! edrie text me before 12am last night.
aww.. missed him too much.

counting down till sunday! woohooo!

there's a underage party at zoukout on the 20th i guess?
mau pe?! HAHAHA!
but reyan wants me to attend his gig. *dilema*

imy _________!!

when the red light comes on, i transform

2008-12-04T18:12:00.006+08:00

fresh new blogskin huh? (:
well.. serious shit, i'm bored at home, so why not occupy my time and change blogskin ya? *giggles*

err, still jobless. (: & i'm not lovin' it
cause i don't have any cash with me!
me&afiq planned to open up our own company.
our own business! (: (inside joke)

grandma was admitted to GH again.
get well soon my super duper grandma. (:

ouh yessah! i'm so lovin' it la kan? *sarcasticly*
gfs asked me out this coming sunday, i told them i'm free.
infact, i've forgotten that it's Eve of Hari Raya Haji.
mumy nagging i'm going out and it shows that i can't go out?
SHIT! i spoilt the mood again!!!

haiyaaaaa.... idk what to do. (:
i'll try to convince my mumy ya gfs?

hehe! i miss my ihkmal! (: happy werking dude! :P

i've gain weight! MUMY COOKED NICE FOOD DURING HOLIDAYS!
yipee! but tonyte, mumy's out to overnight at hospital with grandma.
YEAYYY! next week my lovely DONUT JUNIOR gonna sleep over at my crib. (:

outss~ (:
muackss!

EGO

2008-11-30T11:43:00.006+08:00

i don't wanna blog about this, but i THINK you force me to.
i'm sorry if what i'm gonna say here gonna hurt u deep down or whatever la kay?

who the hell didn't want to go out? like seriously la!
i told you isnt it? u guys plan. i go with the flow. beep me when everything's confirmed.
some were busy with bfs? err.. i dont think i am. but well... i think bf does matter to them u see.
some were busy werking? and also, i'm not working, but i will get a job soon. (:
some were plainly un-interested? YES! that's me. why? you hate it. well too bad babe.
i'm not interested. cause all u guys do is, confirm and cancelled and so on.

seriously, i've planned what to do with my cousin yesterday, but you girls were in my mind,
i cancelled it with them, and end up this happened?

seriously, babe I know you're reading this, i seriously hate what you've told me on msn last night.
since fucking when did i say you're not needed in the circles of friends?
you're making me wanna give up on this friendship even more!
stop having this stupid fucking feelings can?!
cause i know, i can't console you anymore. i'm not the good friend you used to know.
i've moved on.
i'm not the girl who you can rely on.
not the one who understands you. Infact, i think since last time i'm not the one.

who the fucking hell don't miss my girls?
of course i missed them. but they were too busy with things.
so i'll let time decide what's gonna happen next.

i know, in ur mind, u might think that i've changed fucking damn lots!
infact, you even said i've changed.
that's my life, and that's me. so i'll decide on what good and bad for me.
thanks for your care and concern all this while.

if u think by leaving me is the coolest and good thing and will make ur life better out there,
go ahead, i'm no one to stop you babe.
and if you think i'm still needed by you, well err.. nothing to say.

choose the best for you, cause life has nvr been perfect for anyone, even millionaires
and can you see.. all i do here is blame people and not myself.
err.. WHATEVER LA! (:

i've changed

2008-11-29T21:44:00.002+08:00

i've decided to blog, cause i'm fcuking bored. =x
i've been out of home since last week.
been sleeping over at my cousin's crib.

(:
nothing much to update about me actually.
i miss sch, that's it.

i want to dye my hair! FCUK!
and i don't have the fucking money cause i am bloody hell not werking!
i went for interviewS and send out resumeS! but still no reply.
but they did said that they want student on vacation.
urgh!

i miss wan(remy)
tc ya love? u've met with an accident. haishh. syg kauuuuuu la!!
i miss edrie too. (:

ouh yeaa! i miss my WADY! mane menghilang pon ku tk tau!

i miss....... my... gf?? i guess so.

2008-11-12T14:43:00.003+08:00

ma babes
me&MY MAN!ks

you know who!

my baby!

LOVELIES!

before my comp being a shit again, i better hurry.

hehehe..

IM FREEEEEEEEEE! no more exams pls?!

yayaya..

i wanna go holiday!! please mumy??

ouh yea, went hang out with my lovelies, zie, nana and alfie last night.

bought kak lyn bdae present!

MUAHAHAHA!

i miss my lovelies.

met sir,kelly,KS,Coco&Fred. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK LYN! muacks!

i want babies from u. HURRY!!

i'm out!

2008-11-10T15:57:00.003+08:00

random

i smell freedom. yessah! i smell it. it's coming real soon!

hahaha!

few more hrs and i'm gone out of jail. *exaggerating*

things to do :

1. karaoke right after paper!

2. meet TTM!

3. get bdae present for kak lyn.

4. job hunting.

5. kak lyn's bdae pit.

6. meet kepit at pit i guess?

7. SLACK SLACK SLACK!

yipeeeee! i just can't wait the tmr to come. can't wait for the clock to strike 9am.

basically, cause O lvls gonna come to its end soon. alright?

i'm free. like seriously, mumy wont go, "adik?! who are talking to on the phone?"

"it's late! go and sleep!"

"why are u still on the computer?!"

"go and sleep!!"

"goooooo study!!"

well, that's my beloved mumy. MUAH!

ouh shit! kak lyn's bdae is on 12th nov, & i'm still yet to get her present.

what should i get for her?

errr. ouh ya, she's getting married too.. woohoo.. can't wait to get my own nieces&nephews.

yest. babygirls came to my crib to watch few dvds.

infact 2 dvds, hantu ambulance and & *i forget whats the title* =x

i miss band! i'm not going for the over night camp. but i'm dropping by with beloved shazwani i guess? (:

i wanna go sentosa!!!!!! can? anyone?

yessah! wady called me few days back, awww i missed him man!

errr.. babyboy text me last night. LIKE AT LAST!

merajok lame sey. 2 hari? nvm. LOVE YA BABY! (:

and yes, i missing ttm now. good luck for ya job interview ayte sugar~ (:

i'm off

2008-11-08T19:19:00.003+08:00

will u be mine?

alright. computer has being a shit.
keep shutting down by itself, and it affected what i've done on the pc.
BODO!
soooooo, use my lappie and pluck in the comp's specker to have a better sound.

i've been busy with something but not studies.
well. MCQ sci; no big deal. MCM FAHAM!
busy with boys! HAHAH! mepek.
tklaaaaaa..

thurs, after paper when vivocity with family! YIPEEEEE!
bought a bag for myself.. MUAH!
den... talk to ttm! HEHE
*WINK*

fri went modelling for kak ain, den so tired.

ouh yea, was on the phone with teman tapi mesra till 5am this morning.
that cause me to wake up at 1pm. =x
so tired yet feeling so good. cause i love teman tapi mesra.
missing him right now cause he went jamming. (:
he left so suddenly from msn, cause i think something went wrong.
miss ya baby.

errr.. karaoke session between me, nie& zie wan HELL YEAH!
but, so fast ended and watch hindustan. MUAH!
ohhhhhhh my darlinggggg i loveeeeeee youuuuuuu~~
*giggles*

i miss TTM!
muachs!!! (:

i'm out lovelies!

2008-11-04T19:20:00.005+08:00

click on convo to have bigger view

alright. saw that convo between me and fido?

ayte shawty, it's kinda sad to see him saying that.

it's not the matter of i'm being emotional or what, but the fact is i love you people.

remember the first day we were in sch, walking into the class with the bossy look

cause we made it to sec 5?

remember the time, we were complaining who was our subject teachers when jotting down the timetable for the week.

the time, we knew principal was our co-form teacher.

when we knew we have someone new in our class.

the moment we quarrelled, laughed, sigh & everything.

we joked, we teased, we fight and all.

you people were the most wonderful people on earth i knew apart from the rudeness right wan?

the love, care and concern from you people was endless.

time; deciding who are suppose to debate for the competition,

entering the pronounciation challenge.

being bossy when our class was being pampered with our "mother" with beautiful tables&chairs.

painted classrooms.

air-con-ed rooms for examinations.

form teacher doing his best to fulfill our needs.

treating us like friends, hatred and joy among us was endlessly too.

in short, i love THE TEACHERS' HEAVEN!

i promise endlessly, yes! (:

2008-11-03T18:43:00.000+08:00

seriously! i don't know what i've done wrong.
everything that i do seems wrong to everyone.
i can't please anyone like SERIOUSLY!

first, ss had being a shit! sri lanka didnt come out. FUCK!
2nd, reach home, mumy didnt cook! FUCK! i didnt eat from morning and reach home, no food??
then, anhar called and all he wanted was phonesex, phonesex, phonesex!!! GET LOST IDOIT!
nudge fiq at imesh, he looks agitated. URGH!

serious damn shit! everythings wrong isnt it?
i'm going to fuck off from you people's life.

and to KEPET! get lost alright? u already have a gf, stop coming to me and showing it off to me, cause i don't even care BUSTED!
go fuck your own gf!

to edrie, i know your're not reading this but i want to let out my fucking feelings here.
u made me love u, and end up, u left me just like that.
WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT? okay. i'm sick and tired of all this fucking shit alright?
all i want to have now is a happy live with my family and friends, cause afterall they are the ones who is with me.
and guys who will be played by me, i'm sorry cause your own men make me become like this.

i'm out.

2008-10-31T12:24:00.003+08:00

hey darlings... (:

yessa! mumy pampared me&siblings with our all time fav chicken rice and mee hongkong at jamil's restaurant yesterday. ((:

like finally, the whole family get to dine together as a family after a long time.

met kak lyn at bedok, cause kak ain need to get an office wear for her upcoming pengantin this weekend.

err.. end up, both my sis pampered themselves with all the clothes that attracted them.

and also, they pampered me with the clothes that i want.

bought 2 long sleeve shirt with one 3/4 checkered pants.

i'm gonna wear it on 15 NOV! for kak lyn's bdae party. (:

went to aunt house. chilled; played psp and eat potato chips. =x

imagine how to lose another 8 KGs like this? hehss...

dammit! monday is ss paper, and i'm so not ready for this. URGH!

& today, i'm helping kak ain to be her model for a day cause she needs my beautiful face, long & wavy hair of mine to make her make up skill POWER TO THE MAX! =x

*giggles*

we're going popeye, but i'm kinda reluctant.

whatever it is, u still have to treat me kak ain! =x (:

*smile widely*

tc! tooooooooodles!

i dont care and i dont give a shit to you anymore, cause i give up! (:

2008-10-28T22:18:00.002+08:00

i'm fucking dont know what to do.

i'm fucking dont know how i should convey this to you.

cause, simply i'm not getting what i want and what we planned for.

i'm reluctant to trust you.

everything changed right after we were officially together.

i'm not sure what exactly you needed.

you want the real relationship or just hanky panky relationship or just the sake of it (like zie said)

or issit me? not understanding?

stupid? selfish? everything?

idk.

busy, busy and busy non stop??

i hate the word busy!

FUCK!!

2008-10-25T16:21:00.002+08:00

heylo sunshines! (:

errr... see?? i've update my blog. and i'm super busy right now.

changed blogskin when i should be mugging for physics paper on wednesday.

URGH!

i just cant wait for O's to end. and currently i'm ANGRY with babyboy!

text me la dey! =x

hehe. shhhhhhhh!

errr. that's it for now i guess?

will be mugging tmr, monday & tuesday at JELUTONG CC. maybe... =x

toodles!

2008-09-22T20:20:00.001+08:00

i'll make this update short and sweet i guess. =x

okay like u said missy, you're sorry and stuff. but you mean it tak?
i apologised cause i didnt know the true story, like what u said.
eh! tapi KAT DLM DUNIA NI, SAPE TKNK MENGAKU KESALAHAN DIRI SENDIRI??
someone insane only.

seriously uh, i'm sick and tired of my blogs being read by someone stinky like you.
oppss! ouh yeaa~ blogs are meant for ANYONE to read uh. haiyerr..
another thing, its my problem la kan to mock or make stupid sounds when you walk pass me.
why can't i? are you like a PRINCESS of wrss or something? even if you are. FUCK YOUR ASS MAN!

and mind you, after what had happened between you and Siti Aisyah Ismail,
every recess time, she comes to our class, she nvr ever talk about you to us.
LIKE SERIOUSLY! and i think you know me too. sape tknk justice kan???
u remember me asking you be together again with Didi and Dee??
and the same things goes, EGO! both parties.

i ask you uh, in friendship, won't there be any gossips being spread around the circle?
of course there is. please la eh! i thought you're matured, expand your thinking la.
please eh, i always wants the best for my friends. Although you& me are not close.
i want you girlsto taste the happiness again

i know how painful it can get to lose a friend, and you might not feel it now cause anger is conquering you.
But girl, listen, reminise on the happy moments you guys shared.
all the gossips that made you girls laughed.
the laughing session u girls had.

it's coming to the end of the year. we must learn how to appreciate.
YES! friends come and go, BUT! true friends stay with you all the time and support you.
but to you girl, i know you mean well to help Aisyah.
i know you're brave enough to confront her to what's the real thing.
until all became berserk like now.

now, i take this opportunity to apologise alright? i know i'm no one to you girls to interfere.
but i want justice between you girls.
Appreciate the moments you girls have now alright?
at least promise me that you girls gonna be friend again and clear things out before your time is up.

okay? talking about friendship, i miss my girlfriends.

had a great chat with sir. awww.. i missed him man~
haish. persistence ayte sir? everything will go back to normal. as you know, i always wants the best for the people around me. (:
i'm always here for you. i'll remember what you told me last night.

i miss Kokseng and Kelly& Shazwani. the most outrageous senior i ever had.
they nvr fail to make me have their love. Although we seldom meet.
they spiritually give me their support. thanks my lovely people.

i miss WRSMB!

(:

2008-09-19T16:45:00.001+08:00

hey.. today basically was errrr boring i guess??

cause i bloody hell skipped sch today. hehe

i'm having this lazy mood as well as stomach ache in the morning. (:

ouh yea stinky mouth, u lovin' it? aww. me too sweety.

but too bad, cause i'm kinda lazy to blog and flood my blog with vulgarities & sarcasm.

my mumy said it's sucha waste of time. =x & it's true for me to waste my time on someone who has that stinky mouth. =x OPPSS!

okay okay saleha! stop it eh! nnt die nangis susah, tkde org nk pujok psl die da tkde friend =x

HAHAHA! i love doing this but masyaallah i can't continue doing this shit.

astaghfirullahala'zim i'm fasting. (:

hehe. yes, i'm being a good daughter, i iron ayah's uniform for him. (:

and i'm feeling so good because i've doen something good for him.

i missed him so much. =x

it has been sometime since i have a nice and funny chat with him although he seems to be someone serious.

But, he can be funny at times. (:

i was surfing and browsing websites. & i really wanted to this since last year.

was browsing through websites about piano lesson/courses. awww. i'm really excited. =x

i want and will enroll myself to attend piano lesson after my major 'O' Levels exams.

yes. and that's confirm! (:

but DAMN! mumy kinda cold towards it. ): seems like shes doubtful about it.

she said it's sucha waste of time. grrrr~

well, but i know deep inside her, she will allow me. Because i dont think she would want me to stop the family tradition, correct? hehe.

i want to continue my journey of life with music in me.

well, why can't she allow me to when i already involved myself with music industry since i'm 9?

i'm sure she will after my O's

maybe she's just worried about my exams. (:

don't worry mumy. (:

Hari Raya preparation not yet started. But i've bought my baju for the festival.

only one set. no more. i'll not be celebrating this festival like i does few years back.

OUHH YES! ii'll be making kueh raye for grandma this year! (: hehe.

it's a simple kueh. it's a cornflakes covered with chocolate and white chocolate topping.

it may sound simple, but the process of doing it is complicated cause many steps. =x

so anyone wanna taste it, come to my crib during Hari Raya okay? =x

mumy will be makin kueh tart too. (:

i'm lovin' it.

yes, 21 days left to my major exams. so i'll wont promise if i should blog frequently.

so u'uh.

should get to mugging by now.

tc yaw~

2008-09-18T20:30:00.000+08:00

okay. Blogger has been a shit. GRRR!~ OKAY whatever!

alright. how should i start this? hmm..

how was my day?? errrr.. no no saleha! you're copyright-ing. but DAMN!
unfortunately for whoever-YOUare, my day has been a good one.
being envious and jealous about it?
BECAUSE! my bloody good friends text-ed me and said "saleha, you have to choose your friend wisely okay?"

HAHAHAHAHA! got that right baby??? =x

Firstly, to whom-it-may-be-concern-, i'm sorry to say, i love hypocrites.
mind ya, shes not hypocrites ayte girl? i know her well too. i guess, she've talked or gossip about me among you and your clans, am i right? correct me if im not ayte shawty? (:
Awww., i pity u baby. DON'T you think, you're losing your friend one by one?
BECAUSE! your a person who is full of EGO! your bloody pride is more important.
seriously lady, life w/o friends is more like a someone who lives w/o family. sad isnt it? ):
*come let's cry together* =x

Secondly, if you and your stinky mouth didnt start to gossip first, she wouldnt start too isnt it?
haishh, your peer pressure very strong uh. =x aww... your offended. too bad.
cause you've offended me too darling.

Thirdly, don't you know in life without hypocrites will be very super duper boring.
we can't get angry, we have nothing to blog. our blog will be boring.
isnt it fun, shooting each other on the blog? FUN RIGHT?~ do it more often darling. (:
& also. i'm sorry to say, you made her became what she are now. I'm not blaming you for what had happen.
i'm just handing down my thoughts. (:

Fourthly, dont you think, you're as friend should support her instead of demoralising her?
Hmm.. i may not know the real story. BUT! she need happiness with her BOYFIE.
prove it to me that him cant make her happy. TELL ME ABOUT IT BABY!

i'm not tryna interfere on you people's problems. But if dont like someone, say it straight to the face.
Stop stating it on the blog, You're making things worse.
You're sucha a disappointment.

ouhhhhh~~ you think i'm talking about you.
awwwww, good then. (:

tc yaw~

2008-09-13T22:23:00.001+08:00

alright. prelims done. and for sure i'm gonna flunk all the subjects.
i mean seriously. i didnt really study for this test. haishh.
sucha s disgrace. but whatever okay?~
O lvls that matters. anyone who wanna come and tell me, "no! ure wrong, prelims is to see where u at!" fuck you people alright?~ (:

so, i basically i'm on the mood where i don't care about things. let it be to what it wanna be.
i don't care.

this few days, i'm feeling so... errr.. how should i put it? hmm...
i don't know.. not sad, not angry. i dont know.
hmm, everytime feel like vomitting. =x
errr. don't get anything wrong in mind. i've been rather not well this few days.
aint sure why.

ouh ya. had a chat with hennie last night. told her how i felt about something.
but still.. i'm not convince. there are still things i kept to myself.
serious, for the sake of myself not being backstab again, i learned to keep it to myself.
okay whatever to whoever you are~ (:

hmm its coming to the third week of ramadhan. Alhamdullilah
but there is something that keeps on bothering me. i've not yet bring myself near Allah.
haishh. ): i'll do my best to fulfill that.
i need u all the time Almighty no one else before my parents.
i'll do my best. i promise. Insyaallah

i'm planning to get back to ngaji
and back to blaja ugama with ustaz TM Fauzy
i miss all those chatting session with Mumy Sakina and the other pegawai
Insyallah i will settle things after O lvl, and get back or not exactly that im lost.
get back to the old me. Insyallah (:

that's all folks~ (:

2008-09-06T16:35:00.000+08:00

This is the day and date my mum was brought to KK hospital to undergo for an operation.

JUST to get me out of her womb and stomach.

last minute, doctor said my bloody leg gonna come out first instead of my head.

& also, its the matter of save the mother, baby or undergo an operation.

ibuwas brave enough to go through all that just to save me.

she save my life. and also Almighty saved her for me. (:

Alhamdullilah

so today, 6th september 2008, and still counting is a very special day for me since 1991.

my family has brought me up very carefully and luxuriously.

they nvr failed to make me felt the love, care and concern.

they also nvr failed to me eat till im like a teapot now. =x

so i'll do my very best in my life, and pay back what they've done for me.

ayah&ibu pls give me a chance to feed you before u left this world? (:

insyallah

& to siblings, thanks for the love, advise and non stop tease from you guys.

if kak lyn already married, im sure im not gonna get the same love from you.

let's treasure this moment alright? (:

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO ME! (: (: (:

so Alhamdulillah i get to meet another year of my birthday.

and syukur it is in the most blessful month in the calendar of Islam.

insyallah Allah will grant all my wish. (:

i'm one year older now. & stilll behaving like a small kid.

i'll be the best among all. (: i'll do what it requires me to do an an adult.
(:

Thursday, 4th september 2008.

my babygirls, babyboys and i went to Al-ameen to break our fast.

had fun. serious... they were the most pleasant, fun, loving and precious gift from Allah after my family.

they shower me with their love, care and concern.

never failed to make me laugh especially Afad. (:

being around them is the most memorable moments.

with all the missed lovelies such as Ichan, Aym, Bob, Shira and Shafa came down made my day more.

bbAym, the cute and handsome him. never failed to smile and tease me. ((:

bbIchan with his nonsence, poking his lip holes with toothpick. (: i miss u dude!

bbBob, HAHA! him& his super lame and NOT funny jokes. =x (:

bgShira, AAAWWWWWW! her laugh. (: love it man. miss those moments. MUACKS!

bgShafa, the malu2 kucing smile. miss her damn much! 1 MORE DAY BABY!

sucha a blissful soul. They surprised me with an Oreo ice cream cake from swesen under BabygirlAin's crib.

sang birthday song. twice or thrice i guess. hehe. den kissed. hugged. kissed again.

PRESENT TIME! hehe. exchange with BabygirlShafa. i hope u love mine, cause i love yours&YOU!

awww. i love them alot man. Serious, u guys are the most precious gift from Allah.

Thank you so much my Babygirls; Ain, Zie, Ogy, Ita, Nie, Dee, Didi, Shafa, Shira, Nadiah(adek D)

Babyboys; Aym, S.Wan, Ichan, Bob, Afad, Is &Fido.

for making my Birthday Celebration a success.

Those who wished me and stayed up late THANK YOU VERY MUCH! (:

special thanks to: (Advance wish) Darren, Yan, Hakim, Fatin & ALOT MORE.

(ON THE DOT! 12AM)(in sequence) Didi, Ninie, Zie, Eezan, Sat, Aishah, Wady. (SMS)

(MSN) (ON THE DOT TOO!) B;Ash!, Afiq, S.Wan, TauFiq, Daryl, LiangQi & MANY MORE!

(called) Ghani, Azrie Muhsin, Junjie & Wanli.

(SMS,morning) Shafa, Ita, Ogy, HakimAGAIN!, Nad, Raihana, Boon Ta.

SERIOUSLY, there's alot more. but i cant state all correct?? =x

love you people who wished me. hehe!

ayte. going out later at night to MAKAN! yeeeeepieeeeeeeeee!

with family, abg saiful&Razi. ((((:

lalalalala~~

sing the tune with me people. ayte shawty, let the picture do the talking.

MUACKS! (:

PICTURES!

2008-08-31T18:43:00.000+08:00

alright. im back i guess? but maybe for a moment? haha.
i know i've left this blog for quite sometime.
but... i'll come back soon. (: hehe
okay that doesnt matter. what matters now is what happened during T'chers Day.
cause... OMG! i just love my peepz.(:

its was super duper fun with classmates participating with all the games we organised.
treasure hunt, musical chair, freeze dance, balloon burst.
ballon burst was super fun cause i played. hehe!
only me, ain, fido& fad played, cause the rest was afraid of balloon, ESPECIALLY ISKANDAR KAMARUDIN!. =x
haha.. eventually, fido won. ): bleahhhh!

concert was so so.. the sec one's performance was errrrr... embarassing and i sang for them in the hall... HAHAHA!
but its okay.. they re-perform for us.. and we gave our support.
THAT'S THE SPIRIT HONEYYY!!~~
HAHAHA!
and.........
the happening part was!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my lovelies came down!
okay let me list down the peepz,
azri, shahid(shaBOI), muhsin, alil, ichan, jerry, ghani(eeeeeee!), bob and some boys if i've missed them up. hehe
den my DARLING!!! CAME!! awwwwww REMUS CHA MING YANG~ lalalalalala~
hahaha. ((((:
awwww.. i missed him damn much man. HAHAHAH!
as per normal the other gfs was gah gah over him. hehe. joke joke ard with him like what we used to do.

damn damn damn! i miss him now! =x
den... chit chat... laughed with the other boys jokes and stuffs
and at last its home time.
and REMUS wanna hug me! WOOOOOHOOOOOOOO! hahahahaha!
so salam him and he said "den? salam oni?~"
"huh?~ den what u want?", i said.
"hug uh!", remus.
"ouhhokay!", me.
we hugged and damn! we part from each other.
):

i was wondering when will we meet again.
same goes to bunch of my malay boys.
urghh! my birthday we meet again eh boys?? preeeeetyy pleeeeaseeee!
hehehe.
i'm missing u people now.
okay okay! stop it eh babe! (:

meet up soon ayte lovelies.

so about the 2 of u. think wisely ayte. stop being childish.
things not gonna work if u guys keep shooting on each other on the blog.
cause NO USE la!
maybe meet up and talk. isnt it better.
i just hope that things will get better. (:

and alhamdullilah tmr's the 1st day of ramadhan.
&disappointingly, i cant fast cause having my red light. lerrrrr~ ):
but nvm la. dugaan
SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN EH SUME! (:

and!!!! my bdae is in 6 days time.
WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
(: better get me something people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lalalalalala~

2008-08-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

ok! first, welcome back kak ain! (:

at last. the room is occupied by her again.

everynight will be disturbed by the bed as she keeps on moving to the right and left. =x

guess what? dady talked to me. (:

alhamdullilah

yaya the best! (: he nvr fail to make me feel secured.

shared with him how i'm feeling right now, because.....

tmr's my O lvl mid yr mt result.

dammit! dammit! dammit! see! when i'm writing this, i heart beats faster.

urghh.i feel so insecure because of my composition. serious shit! i wrote

rubbish! out of point gile!

shit shit shit! i dnt know how to describe.

i also think that during my oral, i talked w/o thinking.

just spit out whatever in my mind.

but the invigulator said "lawa jam awak!"

what does that mean?? hmm.. good?~ or just wanna make me feel good?

okok! i should get my hands off the computer!

no more msn-ing.

no more friendster-ing.

URGH!

yes i need to do it! noooo matter what.

need to mug 24/7.

issit gonna happen?

okay... i'm gonna be strict to myself.

what i am suppose to do from now on:

1.no msging any guy w/o any reason except wady

2.no msn if there no files to pass around.

3.after school, ,stay back if you want. if dont want, go home rest for a moment and continue revising.

4.don't be rude to parents and siblings.

5.get closer to Allah

6.at least revise 3 topics of sci. (chem&phys) 3 each.

7.by hook or crook, practice maths everyday.

8.memorise geog content before sleeping.

9.be attentive in mr ravin's lesson! no more jokes. SERIOUS MODE!

10.get slimmer HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! (:

2008-08-10T15:17:00.001+08:00

sometimes i wonder, why my own blood act very cold towards me.
i'm the type of person who can't shut up when i'm not in the wrong.
isit wrong to stand up for my rights?
i know you're someone older than me. or rather, someone who produced me?
should i say that?
but you. sometimes i feel that i'm not yours.
do i come from other people who you pick up from the streets or something?
i tried my best to talk or come up with something just to start a conversation.
but... your facial expression shows you hate me that much.
to the certain extend that i felt so lost and belong to no one.

when you reached home from work, yes i know you're tired.
but at least make an initiative to look at me so that i can smile at u. at least?
i'm thinking till when we will become like this.
seriously, how rude i am, how bad i talk about you to mumy and siblings.
life is never ever complete without you.
your actions, anytime bring me to tears.
almost a week not a single word from you.
not even a call.
not even a goodluck wish for my practical exam.

i dont know if i'm sad or angry. it can be both.
angry at myself for not being a good daughter and maybe angry about you not giving me chance to explain myself.
sad, is that how you treat your own blood?
accidentally hit me and not even a sorry from you?

i know, i've nvr done good things to please you.
i've nvr done anything to make you proud.
i've never done anything to make your siblings respect upon you.
what i did was, being rude, bad and all.
i tried to change for the best to improve our relationship.
but it seems that, it has stucked in me.
that's my character. that is me. that is who you produced.

keeping a distance from one another is not gonna work.
cause i know. i need you in my life.
your the most respected and important people in the family.
but sometimes, the head of the leader should have a fair side isnt it?
you can't favour who you like most. you should give your love to the people you love equally.

i know who i am. i'm not up to your expectation.
i'm not the kind who always make you proud but yet bring you down to the core.
i'm truly sorry. )':

i cant afford to bring myself upon my mumy and siblings.
i dont wish for them to know that i'm upset.
because they know, i'm always the happy sort.
all this while, i've been putting a strong front.
with your actions and words hurt me deep inside.
but... afterall your my own blood.
once again, i'm truly sorry.):

yours truly, saleha

2008-08-09T11:44:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 6th August 2008

me and my babygirls went karaoke. HAHA! we had fun tho.
but i think, i'll not talk much. let the picture do the talking.

ouh yea.. this few days, kak lyn have been pampering me with things.hehe!

she&abg syaiful bought me k910i phone. WOHOOOO! meaning new phone! (:

love ya people! (:

2008-08-03T20:26:00.000+08:00

its sunday, and tmr's monday. meaning, another week gonna start real soon.

and also, Prelims are nearing.

O lvls too.

hmm. see how fast time flies.

weekends have been tiring for me.

seriously, past weekends = rest and slacking day.

present, weekends = mugging day. grrr!!

sometimes i was thinking, if i take a break, i'm losing out lotsa things. ):

and i feel that i'm not doing enough.

maths have been a torture for me. grrr! ):

im upset and livid towards myself.

please Allah, spare me some thoughts. and make feel confident and safe for my precious O lvl.

mumy have been sucha naggy lately.

she'll get upset over a small matter.):

i wasnt wished goodluck by her on sat for my practical mock exam.

yet, scolding me. i'm disappointed at a moment.

but i guess, it testing my patience. endure.

lotsa things happening at the same time.

cupid have not been text-ing.

maneeeee jekkk pegi

kinda worried. at least tell me what's up with your life ayte dude?

hear from you soon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REMUS CHA MING YANG!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CHIN KOK SENG!!

2008-07-31T22:46:00.001+08:00

u guys know how my heart blooming now? haha.

cause im feeling so secured with my beloved friends around me.

especially my primary school friends like Hanis.S, Ilmuna, Nadilah, Nabila, SHIRA!, Adlee, Shazlina, ROHZE!, Raihana, Syafiq, ASHRAF!

till now, i'm still in touch with them. awww.. they are sucha love in my life.

they are more than anything to me.

i love them like i love myself. (:

i still remember, when raihana first call me a CUTE BEAR!

the time when rohze saw me crying when im doing the high elements in jln bahtera.

when syafiq with his side parting hair and combed it flat.

ilmuna,Hanis.S,Nad,Nab,Shira,Shazlina & other clans went to school together.

laughed and sing the same tune.

ASHRAF! with his trombone dancing while playing. =x opps..

with adlee nvr ending with his problem telling.

how wonderful can my friends be? they are the wonderous creture i ever met. :)

and the recent friends i have. DIDI, ZIE, AIN, ITA, HENNIE, DEE, WAN, IS, AFAD, SYAH, RIZ, NISAH, JUNJIE AND the rest.

you guys are wonderful people.

i just cant afford to lose u guys.

thanks people for being my friends (:

i'm just being appreciative today!~~

guess what? i miss u damn much my dear.

no text, no call. u made me feel so lost.

still waiting for your call.

that's you wady.

RANDOM!

hahahahahahahaha!

2008-07-30T16:43:00.000+08:00

its wednesday, & i'm not in school.

meaning i skip school. =x

tolerating with the flu and cough non-stop.

grrrrrrrrrr!

did some revision tho. chem and geog.

i think i wanna go on HIATUS.

but i think no.

cause computer is sucha disturptor.

alhamdullilah. kak lyn & abg syaiful had got engaged for 2 weeks.

fast uh?

insyallah, next yr they will build their castle.

YEAY!

i just cant wait for the nieces&nephew time!

WOHOOOOOOO!

alright. i'm off for now. (:

tc yaw~

2008-07-26T14:35:00.000+08:00

first, i'm mad cause i can't go out to buy perfume.

second, i'm livid towards myself because of being rude to my mom this few days. ):

third, i'm worn-out cause i just cant get all the comb.sci facts into my head!

fourth, it's mounful that i'm not ready for O lvls and its like in less than 13 weeks.

& lastly, i felt so disheartened for what had happen few minutes ago.

sometimes, things are not to be.

we never know what's gonna happen next, what we can do is just be ready.

and, we cant burst out like what we wanted.

things aren't the way i want it to be. ):

morning, went to school la! cool or great? done with f&n coursework B!

wooooohooooo! cheeseecake coming along. hmm.. sandwiches? choc muffins? =x

doing maths now. GRRRR! enlargement is getting on my nerves.

but i'm getting along with maths now.

BUT! we are not done yet with our chapter. O lvls nearing.

URGH!

whatever is so last season!

gotta get back to my maths. lalalalala!

2008-07-07T16:09:00.000+08:00

hey. seems like i'm updating everyday. haha. boredom.
i should be mugging now instead of blogging. *listening to mumy nagging*

i was woken up by his text.
URGHHHHH! then, dady's phonecall.
grrrrr!
dady asked if i wanna change my punjabi suit or not.
sooo ape lagik?!
lompat katil siol!
HAHAHAHA!

got ready and grroooom! to PHS with train. (:
den dady&mumy, waited for me at the gate. reached, zoooooooom! to TEKKA!
hahahaha.
(:
ate mee rebus there and abit of briyani DUM!
then change the punjabi suit. (:
red? woohoo. merah mak ngah!

tmr's schooling! yeeeepee! home make me dont wanna study.
and MT o lvl listening comprehension is on 15 july.
oppss! sooooo soon! mesti korek telinga siol! kalo tk pekak!

ouhh ya. something knock the sense outta me.
i've learnt. no matter how harsh my parents words are, i must endure.
and forever be good towards my parents and siblings.
BUT! sometimes cannot uh! =x
ENDUREEE!!!!!!!!!!!

ex criminal is better than ex GOOD people. (:

tc yaw! (:

2008-07-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

boohoo! its sunday. and tmr not schooling. (:
haha!
yestersay was errr.. tiring?
morning had f&n coursework b.
nearly noon, had investiture.
gave my speech and presents to my cutie juniors and the new batch of leaders.
they gave me monkey! yeepee. cute monkey!

thanks lovelies. ILYguys! (:

the day before sat, when for a surprise at hennie's crib!
WOOOOOHOOOOOOO!
happie birthday hennie.! her birthday is today!
i pray for your health and wealth.
everything just for you my dear.
I Love You the same as the other girls.
no more, no less. (:
and LOVE YA larh!

haha! funny man! after celebration, we played true or dare.
HAHAHAH!
i kena true.
know what they ask? "among us, who is the apple of my eye."
i was ERRRRRRRRRRRRR!
hahahah! XD
dennnnnnnnnnnn!
hennie get a dare!
and we dare-d her to ask for any guy's num from the bus stop.
and she did it larh siak!
opppssss! HAHAHAH!
(:

and today? spring cleaning again lerrr...
kak lyn getting engage in 2 weeks time! YEEEPEEEE!
haha! i bought punjabi suit! woooooohooooo!
(:
ok i love everyone!

bye!

2008-07-01T19:11:00.002+08:00

what a surprise uh! zie! thanks ayte. haha.
saw the pic above? thats the exact pic zie gave US, the girlfriends.
she gave us in an envelope. and there's a little secret msg for each of us.
secret la dey. BUT! i'm touched, she said "you never fail to make me laugh."
well? does that remind you bout the bus incident thingie?
HAHAHAHAHA!
i didnt give u a hug my dear.
but you know i'm always hugging you isnt it? haha! =)
thanks babe. i love it! LIMEGREEN lagik!=X

TODAY was okayyyyyyyy.
SS sucks can? she keep on picking on me&HENNIE?! haha!
whatever okay..

woops! i owe Mr. Faraz 2 compo. 2 comprehension. URGH!
O Level's cominggggggg!!!!

17 weeks left? or less???
urghhhhhh! STRESSSSSSSS!

stupid bus driver! HAHAHAHAH!
kay bye!

2008-06-28T18:07:00.000+08:00

haha! i'm done editing my blogskin. well it looks rather simple & i'm lovin' it. (:
wanted to finish it up yesterday, but photobucket fed me up. =x lol.

this post is for shira since she keep on bugging me to update.
it's weekend and i'm not catching up with my studies. that's horrible.
but i'm gonna do it after i'm done blogging.

first week of school is fun as usual, except for ..... =x
ouh yea. science practical is so fun! cat ions. lalala. (: P.E was hilarious.
badminton was cool uh. high ball. hahaha!
nothing more la. school as usual.

ouhh yeaa. did the gubahan for kak lyn's engagement ceremony. (:
and i miss you!!!!!!!! random

i HATE! ghani. he sucks u know.
non stop hits. keep on teasing me. and pleeeease! slows the time for me to mug plsss.
okay go now!

bye!

2008-06-16T14:24:00.000+08:00

boo! one week left to school reopen.

means, hell gonna start again in teachers' ~~heaven~~

same goes to hennie! i miss her badly!

and cool or what? she's back from umrah

alhamdullilah, she've touch down safely.
air zam zam jgn lupe eh kak! hahaha!

basically last week, i didnt mug at all. what did i do?
ouhh long story.
spring cleaning.cleaned room, shifted things here and there. washed toilet.
washed kitchen flooring.
shifted bed in beloved parents room.
kak lyn's room sweep here and there.
my room. YEEEEPEEEEEEE! computer table in my room instead of in the living room.
COOL OR GREAT????

(:

there's this one day, i forgotten when issit.
me, beloved parents and grandma went jb, air hitam.
e'eh shopping sakan nohh! haha! grandma bought lots of stuff.
and gerek peeeeee! grandma bought me a watch from esprit
and a watch from E.L.L.E for kak ain.
yeeeeepee! i have a watch for myself! weeeeeheeeeeee!
grandma bought me dora the explorer's pillow.
mr bean's pouch. hahaha! cuteeeeee pe nenek aku!

there's this one day, me, kak lyn, abg syaiful, kak ain and ~~abg~~ razi went changi beach.
which was yesterday. haha
we had fun at night sleeping! ahah
we played uno, which made abg syaiful the ~~champion~~
main uno selit card bleh uh!
we wanted to go fishing, but ~~abg~~ razi didnt bring the fishing stuffs. haiyyerr!
boring larh ni mamat
so we sleep larh. anddddddddd guess what?? guess larh!!
wanted to snore to glory and sleep, urghh! stomach pain lerr!
rushed down to the toilet, urghh! bad thing was, the toilet was damn far from our camp site.
grrrrrr! kudos to kak ain and her boyfie.
no choice, walk in pain. hahahaha!

continue sleeping, skali woken up by kak ain and syirazi again!
they say ade bangla mabok baring depan tent dieorg.
then the bangla peep into my tent and their tent.
haiyoo bangla nk skodeng ngok kiteorg nga mantat ke tk eh? lerr kte tk uat keje terkutuk tu lerr...! lu pegi lari jauh2 ler!
back to snoring till 7+.
had macD for breakfast. kate diet? hell yeah!
chill and slept again. now in the same tent as kak ain and boyfie.

mak oii! woken up by the glaring sun. grr!
the weather killed me!
packed and packed, cab-ed home and sleep in peace on my bed! (:

seriously, left my parents at home for 1 day, i missed them hell yeah! haha!
woke up, hugged mom(:
manjee lerr!

ouhh yea! almost forgotten. =x
this sat, abg syaiful's parents coming for merisik
yeayyyyyy! kak lyn and abg syaiful getting engaged! yeeeeeepeeee!
the engagement will be next month.
alhamdullilah

okay idk what to do now. im outta here yaw!

bye! (:

2008-06-09T18:50:00.001+08:00

first and foremost, i dont know why, i just felt a distant from you guys.

i'm lost when i came back. i know i've disappear for a very long time.

seriously i felt very left out. or maybe its just me?

can't fit in like i always do.

seeing other people came too.

i feel that i'm not important to you guys anymore.

truthfully, i miss you lovely people so much. but..

i really dont have the time to meet you every session.

my studies need more time. its time for me to be very committed towards my work.

i'm sorry. ): i'm so sad.

i've been in the 'idk what to say' mood.

cause i've been sucha procrastinator. haha!

serious. sometimes, what i mugged, i cant get it into my memory! URGH!

so frustrating. i feel like killing myself and guess what homies? feel like giving up!

serious O lvl sucks at time.

okay, i'm speaking like a loser.

damaaaageddddd! i miss kelly LOW!!!

my all time fav twinnie. should chill ard uh babe?

i miss wady too.random

at least text me larh dol!

ouh yea! intensive programme has ended. haha!

i'm free. but its sucha boredom stay at home.

and tmr instead of muggin at home, i'm going to JB with beloved parents and grandma!

YEAY! i'm gonna get what i want! yeeepeee!! haha

okay watta evaa! haha!

2008-05-30T19:25:00.001+08:00

wondering why isnt there thunder striking when the sun is blazing hot.

why must thunder strike when is it raining??

why must the ozone layer deplete when there is cfc gas?

why cant it become thicker instead?

why cant we breathe nitrate instead of oxygen?

why must algreba and trigo be part of mathematics not sci instead?

why must the unstabled nuclear decay faster than stabled nuclear?

why why why?!!

ouhh yea almost forgotten, in the mist of physics lesson, mr. C took 15 mins to ease himself.

haha! he went to the HOD toilet instead. haha!

he is one kind of a teacher. he is super damn funny.

cute too. (:

maths is hell hilarious. babygirls and myself can't stop laughing.

with mr. R's accent with the letter 'V', 'TH', e.g a'V'oid, bo'TH'.

but he don't mind at all. instead, we teached him the correct accent.

2 hrs of algebra make me go nuts, said wan~~cute~~

did i mention about mdm aishah baked us chocolate cookieee!

yeay! thanks mum! =x did i just called her mum?

yes!

AND!!!! our food food experiment we used STALE egg!! OMG!

and firdaus ate it! and he said "diabetes!" haha!

stale egg man! eewwww. i ate quite alot too. same goes to ash. hahaha!

ouh yaa. this is for you boy,

come on alright, stop acting like a person who is much more younger than me

when you're 19. geddit?

sheesh! my blood boil when you're trying to be someone who is mature when the fact is you're not!

seriously. stop the acting before i become nasty boy.

F off alright?

random, suddenly have the urge of having mercy for the si chuan earthquake victims.

ohh god, please protect them. same goes to the myanmar victim. protect them please.

btw mrs.P said, "i'm very disappointed with 5/3!"

whatever okay?

MDM J is the best u know, shes my syg! haha!

and she will go "gatal ehh!"

kay diam!

byeeeeeeeeee!

2008-05-26T14:56:00.000+08:00

O lvl malay paper was errrrr.....
manageable. hahaha!
crap lah!
i think i wrote my karangan out of point!
haha! okay crap. serious crap larh!
paper bahasa was okay too. its just that imbuhan mepek! =x

okay whatever fuck!
later going meeting my beloved teachers' heaven
yeay! we go al-ameen mkn! haha!
okay the place may be not unique. but its the spirit that counts.
hahah! mepek uh leha!
go mkn celebrate we ~~pass~~ our mid yr.
haha! horrible people.

and you, i guess there's no need for that facial expression.
i don't enjoy it at all.
didn't talk.
and not even a smile.
maybe its my fault, i don't understand your situation.
but please eh! u can always tell me what is wrong isnt it?
serious whatever! WHHHHHATEVERRR!

random.
i don't know what wrong with me. i'm so acting like a F bitch.
and i'm so vulgar!

okay! i'm lazy to meet my beloved mates. but too bad!
later they say, "lehaa buihh!!" hahah!

2008-05-25T17:25:00.000+08:00

beloved

alright. wonderful idea uh! update my dusty blog the day before my MT O lvl paper.

okay. muggin my ass out for the pass 3 days.

gave my last full blast for the last 3 laps.

parents meeting session was so suckish!

serious. father made me feel so useless.

accused me w/o knowing the truth.

but, what i did was just keep myself shut. serious. i'm speechless.

thanks father.

malay idioms is killing me!

bagaikan harimau beranak muda = keadaan seseorg yg sgt bengis.

okay crap!

i'm am freaking nervous for tmr's paper.

cikgu said my karangan is weak because of less content.

grrrr!

okay. imagine i'm suppose to write about burung gagak.

omg! that's so merepekkkkkk! haha!

alright must be out now! mom will go "adik! asl tk blaja ni! computer jek!"

i'm trying my best to keep myself a distance from my beloved comp.

endure. resilience. perservere.

way to goooooooo!

goodluck eh my babes! for tmr's paper! syg krg

and syg myself too! haha!

whatever fucker!!

2008-05-15T18:13:00.000+08:00

don't ask about my mid year, cause it is very embarassing.
i guess i'm not suppose to talk about it.
cause it keeps me burning. URGH!

Dr. William Tan came to give a talk in sch.
i'm inspired by him and honoured to hold his hand.
okay, lets begin. he's physically disabled and still can compete in the 7 marathon ard the world.
amazing isnt it.
he gets polio just because when he was born, he didn't get the 2 polio droplet into his mouth.
and yet, he recognise what he dont have and maximises what he has.
sharing about his life, his father sell banana fritters to support his whole family.
he was being brought up in a difficult and financially in need family.
and yet, he brings up himself and prove everyone wrong that although he does have polio,
nothing gonna stop him.

after the talk, had his autograph thingie and of course i'm inspired and motivated.
thanks Dr!
hope u will lead a beautiful life ahead as you've help others alot.

while i'm typing this, my tears flows down too.
i'm utterly disappointed and sad.
basically, it's about her. She don't bother to help.
serious. maybe she was thinking, now is only about her.
or i shall not assume anything.
she wants everything to her. but the rest??

i don't know what i should do.

but whatever it is, i'll be the best i can and break my limitation zone. (:

guess what? motivation last for 5 mins. or shall i say 1/2 hr? =x

2008-05-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

yesterday marked the last day of MYE for me!
like what zie has said, its the last MYE for us, as we gonna graduate this yr.
alright. f&n paper was OKAYYYYYYYYY! except for section C.
ouhh HELL! i didnt really concerntrate on heat preparation whatever thing larh.

yearp, after paper had a lovely lunch with beloved family at banquet. haha!
den home sweet home.

today im so shagged! helped mumy at her stall.
urgh! HEADACHE!!!

PS: band member read the announcement in our band blog. alumi too.

BYE!

2008-05-06T18:17:00.000+08:00

This feelings is so suckish. seriously. it brings me down to the max.
i wonder why i can be happy infront of my family and girlfriends.
but i'm greatful to have them around. nvr ever fail to bring back the smile to me.

imy. seriously. i wonder where have u been.
not a single news from you
everytime, a text came in my phone, always hoping it was you
but yet, disappointment come upon me.
ever since you wanted to get back again,
then, you're gone again.
you will appear again and give very high hopes and again ; gone.
don't you ever cherish what you have?
why just can't you appreciate me?
WHY?!
sometimes i feel so F stupid because i can't control my emotions.

life has been unfair towards me. i don't blame god for that.
its me who can't resist it.
):

and you, its quite taken aback by ur commitment towards us.
enjoy your other commitment alrights.

still searching for my brighter journey.
random: i miss DAVID CANADIAN from adam khoo!! (:

2008-05-05T16:23:00.000+08:00

first, i've left my bloggy alone for quite a long time. sorry.
secondly, i'm very busy preparing for mid year as well as prelims as well as O lvl.
see how pathetically busy i am.

seriously, now adays i'm under depression. laugh, talk to myself.
eating so much adding on more fats underneath my skin.
i'm totally ~~stress~~ by her challenge. well its easy to get 25 points. but, u know. ):

maths paper just now what a hell killer! OMG! i was sweating non-stop,
why? cause i'm so nervous. and hellya! what i practise yesterday, non came out!
isnt it pissing me off? :x anyways. been going ard to check for O lvl guide book.
hmm... but too bad out of stock. pls O lvl candididate can you pls left one book for me.
at least 1 book. okay! ~~lame!~~
isnt that the sign of depression. hahaha!

okay. that short for now. gonna go muggin nowwww!!
BRAINY CHEMIST!!!

TRADERS HOTEL WAITING FOR MY ARRIVAL!

2008-04-19T10:52:00.000+08:00

accept my apology for not updating for a very long time.

look this is my first post for this month. yes! 1st post.

haha. sweety pie have been talking bout my blog in school and laugh over it.

recently, have been absent from school for quite sometime.

down with fever.

i was taken a back by my attitude towards my mumy.

thanks mumy.

didnt rest and sleep well after a tiring day of working.

slept in my room, just to make sure every moment, every minutes i'm okay.

making sure my temperature drops.

keep on asking if i'm okay when i'm moaning.

asking if i need water to ease the pain in my throat.

pour cold water onmy head to ensure my temperature drops down.

do anything just to make sure i'm at comfortable.

and went to work in the morning as per normal.

i'll nvr met a loving mother like her.

that brought me to tears.

thanks mumy. now i realised. i've not been a good daugther to you.

i'm sorry.

thanks to kak ain too. for making breakfast for me just to ensure after took my breakfast, i take my medicine.

i'm feeling abit better now. alhamdullilah

i've been missing alot of stuff in school.

i can't afford to miss school anymore. i'm wayyyyyy behind my classmate.

napha test has already over. but i bet i'm gonna re-test certain station.

one burden over.

mid-year is just right infront of my face.

its in 2 weeks time.

mumy nagging of me not mugging.

ouhh shoots! need to study content for geography&social studies.

i know and i appreciate that you favour me.

but i'm sorry, i'm not use to the situation. please, dont drag me in.

dont take me as someone who can replace her.

i'm not in the option of your choice. i'm sorry.

i can just be a friend to you.

have to mug now before mumy nag again!

okay byeeee!

2008-03-26T19:16:00.000+08:00

i'm finally back to my beloved school.
was super excited when i met my beloved ladies.
:)

in the morning met rai.
reached school, "ehh! lehaaaa! amaciam? da baik?"
"finally ure beck puny!"

haha. was wayyyyyy to delighted to see how concern my friends are towards me.
i love them so muchiesss

omg! kak moon, i'm so into tango right after i went to your blog.
nononono!! hehe! miss ya la kak moon! ouhh btw, get well soon ayte!
ALHAMDULLILAH i'm well now and can run tmr's bluddy hell 2.4km run.
that is so killing me. no matter what i cant and never ever pass my napfa test. :)
seriously sey. that the confirm thing. but i'm gonna RUN FORRR MY LIFE!
haha! kay mepek!

[b]❤ مونيره ѕ£ϊв моΟиЄ³Яά says [/b] filial daughter to you, ma.pa. go ahead.brag about your 'achievements'.i still hate you says:
lawa la dier...

[b]❤ مونيره ѕ£ϊв моΟиЄ³Яά says [/b] filial daughter to you, ma.pa. go ahead.brag about your 'achievements'.i still hate you says:
makin besar, makin lawa ehh

-`SaLyieHa-- says:
haha

-`SaLyieHa-- says:
ehh thanks uh kak moon

sweet isnt it for someone to say i'm preety. ouhhmygod. i know i'm preety thanks hun.
actually don't want to make a big thing about it. but. OMG! SHE SAID I'M PREETY!
hehe! okay go!

today lesson was super duper extravagant hyper. cause the laughing machine is beck!
hahaha!
laugh alot. almost all lesson.

soccer inter-class was hilarious!
btw it was cancelled again due to the weather. HAHAHAHA!
padan muke!
the boys are doing well.. ouhh i'm so loving them and HIM! =x ! oppss!
don't want to tell who! :P

went home with beloved ladies. smack that!

okay go! byeeeee!

2008-03-22T21:17:00.000+08:00

yummmy! guess what? i cooked dinner for my family today.

of course with my mummy's guidance. hehe.

i cooked mee chicken soto and sambal goreng.

its nice okay! except that daddy said it abit tasteless. haishh.. =(
its okay. there is still room of improvement right.

abg syaiful came and bought me polar puff!

my big time fav puff! yess!

omg! i'm pampered again. haha.

basically, this holidae i didnt do anything. just read book the whole day.
what a nice book i borrow from GFhennie. =)

thanks babe. gonna finish soon. hehe.

GFain was shocked. tak bleh tahan uhh. buku best gile. hahaha!

going mugging with beloved tmr. yessaah.

it has been sometime i go to the lib and mug. go leha. =)

wayyyyyy to go. YES! did i tell u guys that ss test is on SRILANKA!

omg! i all time fav topic!

wayyyyyy to goooooo. yeaayee!

gonna mug that and complete my f&N development.

ITS KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!! =)

okay bye! good day!